I love life. I try to avoid all the drama but somehow I always end up getting caught up in it, even if I was never involved, but that's just me. I live my life for me && nobody else! However, my friends && family mean the absolute world to me && I'll stick by them no matter what && fight in the front line in any of their battles...whether their right or wrong.
I've had so many people walk in && out of my life already; few have impact on it && many have tried to control it; believe me...those people never succeed. The reason I love my life so much is because of the people around me && also because I follow one rule that sums up my life...Live, Laugh, Love.
One thing you may want to know about me is that I believe that you never have to prove yourself to anybody && that you need nobodys approval bar your own && honestly...it's the truth. Once you accept yourself for who you are, other people start to aswell. That's how I found my best friends, I love them all so much && I'll never let them go. A true friend is a friend you should cherish for life && that's the reason I'll never give up fighting for them.
I admit that I'm a hard person to get close to, && I blame certain people for that. I've been fucked over far too many times by people who I thought I could trust && I guess that's why. I can forgive && usually I can move on from things that happen; but whether it's in a friendship or a relationship I believe that there's a line that should never be crossed, && if you do that to me... your dead in my book....simple as!
I don't wear my heart on my sleve, I guess from my experiences that I 've learnt how to cover up my emotions, so unless your one of my best friends,...you'll never see me hurt or upset, I don't give the people who fuck me over the satisfaction of seeing me like that, I think it just shows that they've got one over on me.
I hate relationships! Every relationship I have been in has been so wrong for me. I have trust issues && I think that the relationships I have been in are the cause of that. I've been in bad relationships with lads who treat me like shit. I'm a bad judge of character && I think that's why I tend to go for that type, but I also tend not to judge people too quickly. I hate first impressions, I don't think a person can see you for who you are the first time you meet them, && again that's another reason why I tend not to judge people too quickly. I've been in relationships with people who treat me like a princess as well; I guess you could say that I try to look for faults in those relationships because I tend to feel trapped when I get in one. I get bored easily, so for now...all's I want is fun! I'm a big flirt, maybe a little too much for my own good, but that's just the way I am, I guess I could probably be misleading && I'm sorry if you think so but I generally don't mean to be.
There's always people who tend to think they know everything about you && your life, I just laugh at those people. Honestly...how can somebody possibly know everthing about me? I don't know everything about myself yet. I can be a bitch, so go ahead && spread rumours, say what you like, because I can tell you now for a fact... you won't get one over on me. I am a pretty strong little girl && I love that!
I hardly ever make promises. But if I do make a promise to you, then you know I really mean it. A promise to me is a commitment && I'll never break it...you have my word. I've been let down before && I know what it's like, so I try my hardest not let down other people.
I live for having fun! I'm always laughing, it's hard to tell when I'm being serious sometimes, I can be sarcastic, but don't take it personally, I'm just having a laugh with you. I love it when I can have banter with people, honestly I do like to take the piss but I'll never get personal. I can laugh at myself, so I hardly ever get embarrased, so when people take the piss out of me... it genuinely does make me laugh! I am hardly ever serious, only when I need to be, && I know when those times are. I don't take life or myself seriously, I live each day as it comes. I don't plan ahead because I don't see the point. By planning ahead you miss out on what's going on in your life right now... && sometimes those times can be the best experiences ever!
I have so many regrets in my life I've lost count, but I guess they're all just part of growing up. I don't dwell on them. To be honest, I don't see the point you can't change the past, you can just be aware && not let history repeat itself in the future. Hey, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger
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