"Beautiful Twins" said the doctor as he placed us both in my mother's arms. There stood my father besides her, staring at both of us with such amazement. We were brought to this cruel world in January 5 1992. Life was never and will never be easy. That is part of living.
We were raised by our parents, we grew up with two more siblings, Caleb and Lain, Caleb was our stepbrother. My childhood was a fake. I was only happy with my parents, since they took very good care of me, but I was never accepted in school. I was too much of a weirdo, a freak. My only friend was my twin, Tery, who has always been a sweetheart and an optimistic person. I got used to being alone.
As I grew older, I found no real need for friends, only a true person who could hear me and never let me down, and by that time, it was Tery, and my dear friend Stephen. Then it came.
October 13th, 2005. I met Joe at a Hot Topic. I trusted him my whole life, I knew that he'd do anything for me, I'd do anything for him too. But the strangest thing occurred. I began to have feelings for Joe. He was a bit older than me, but that meant nothing. One day, I told my secret to Joe, it was time to, I couldn't help it any longer. I thought he wouldn't care, I thought he'd just stay cool. But, I was surprised. A kiss from his beautiful dead looking lips took my breath away. From that exact moment began the first relationship of my life. I was happy, and I thought he was happy too. But everything changed with one blink of an eye. He cheated on me, broke my heart into million pieces, made me even more pathetic than what I already was.
I couldn't breathe, I could barely think. I could just see white everywhere and blurry faces, yelling, everything went too slow and too fast at the same time. I felt numb. I could feel my own heartbeats, thumping against my chest. Everything disappeared then.
I woke up in a hospital bed, with the freaking white gown I'm so used to. A person I knew too well sat besides me, staring at me with tired looking eyes and a weak smile on his lips, Caleb. He was my stepbrother, but the love i felt for him was too much to label him that way. He seemed tired, as if he waited for me to wake up for a long time. He began to talk to me, telling me things I have never heard from his lips. He had missed his plane to San Diego, just to stay with me, and Tery had gone psychotic in the waiting room. That's the day when he made a scar in my heart, he will forever be my beloved stepbrother. It was the first time, ever in my life, that I tried committing suicide, and it wasn't the last. I became a known patient around there. Most of the times I've tried to commit suicide, people tend to rescue me.
Then came many other things, but nothing could ever be compared with others. I decided to change. Be myself without ever caring for what others had to say. And it seemed to work, I became somehow happy.
After Caleb and I became really closed, I decided to visit his home, I met his mother. San Diego is gorgeous. But things weren't as pretty as I thought they'd be. His mother, the fucking blond, harassed me, she tried to have sex with me, and I could do nothing. I have always been a guy who has respected womans, I would never hit one our abuse of them, what I did best was call Caleb, and he came just in time to tame that beast. Ever since then, I have never had a close contact with the woman.
A few months ago, my sister introduced me to this site. I thought it be nice, and prolly just a waste of time, but it changed a lot in my life. I met a guy named Kevin. He was a sweetheart, a nice guy. But what we had wasn't really working. Then there's Fab, I have always been a sucker for her sweetness and her mayor cuteness. One day, I had fallen for both. But what we all wanted didn't work as well. We all stayed as friends. I kept moving along, meeting new people, making new friends and living as I had always lived. I met Talya, who's just the sweetest most random girl ever, now, she's my fake girlfriend, and she's a total hottie.
I had become a party boy, partying, drinking, fucking, everything well, I thought. I had many more friends than before. My best at the moment, Joseph, had been crushing on me also. There was a party that night, I was a tad bit sad that night. I went to his house, party was near, and I was really drunk. I was used that night, like never before. My friend Jessee got me home before anything else happened. That night, my great relationship with him ended.
I kept moving forward, there was nothing else to do. I met at the time I wonderful person, someone I adore with my whole life and soul, and most important, my heart. Dante. He means so much for me, and will always do. We had a great relationship. But he disappeared, all of the sudden, and I couldn't stand not talking to him. It was really hard for me. I felt my heart broken, but I knew he didn't do this for me to suffer. Something must have went wrong. Raven, my dear loved friend, was always there for me, and she was just more than a friend. I fell for her badly. Everything evolved around her. I decided to move on, so I asked Raven to be mine.
I met Mina. She's an extraordinary girl, amazing, gorgeous, and super cute!! She's my best friend now. She's simply amazing and perfect. Then, I went to Aruba with my sister in vacation. I had a great time with my cousin and ours friends over there. The movie Wall-e rocks ^_^. Moving along, Dante appeared, all of the sudden, and once again, I fell for him. I had no idea what to do, but, I still wanted him, I still do. I was so confused. I fell so pathetic, everything was going rather horrible around me. My parents, my aunt, my friends, everything. I felt so badly.
But things changed all of the sudden. Life is a total disaster. Nothing is what it was before. Every single thing I did for him was in vain. He wouldn't love me now. And I was proven, once again, that everything I do is worthless, meaningless, that I'm just another pathetic little living being who's just a pain in the ass, nothing at all.
Mina, she is a total sweetheart and she has stolen my heart so badly. But would I ever have her as mine? Would I? I have fallen for Mina in desperate times.
My aunt came to visit, she came with my grandmother, and she seemed ok. She is always happy, always smiling, but then reality hit us. My dear aunt is suffering of cancer, and that hit me hard.
Other reality, my father is never here. His work keeps him awake 24/7, and I barely have time to speak with him and feel his fatherly love, and he's about to leave to the US in a few months for a competition of his own.
I'm scared of my mother, still knowing she loves me, and I have no idea how to tell her and explain every single thing that's going on in my life.
I'm afraid of people, of getting hurt. I'm tired of trying to be happy, I'm tired of crying and wanting to be loved. If you want to love me, fine. If you don't, I don't care.
In July 24, I had the guts to ask Mina to be mine, and she gladly accepted to be mine. I felt more than happy. I felt alive, complete, and safe, cause I knew she'd never hurt me. She is my one and only angel.
Now, life hasn't changed much. It's still difficult for me to trust on people. to trust on myself. I just want to be a normal person, unused and happy with somebody that loves me and will never ever hurt me. I want to be really really happy.
If I ever loved somebody, I never loved as much as I love Her. She's my sweet little cuppiecake angel! The sweetness of my life. She brightens everyday and sweetens it whenever it's bad and makes me feel really special. I love you Mina.
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Che cosa faresti se la vita ha ottenuto, attraverso di voi, e mescola tutto, lasciando in un totale disastro?
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About Me
Rules:
~1 No pics of yourself NO ADD
I dislike those who have pics of anime and stuff, HIDEOUS
~2 If you don't talk I WILL DELETE YOU
Cause you'll just save me some more space for other ppl who do deserve to be my friends
~3 If u dont have a MSN U R EXTREMELY LAME!!!
~4 I really love long cmnts, and ppl who can keep it up, talk about anything!!
i will answer back!!
~5 I dont accept "whats up?"as a way to start a convo
If u do write it, i wont answer back, GOT IT?
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So come ci si sente ad essere soli, ma che cosa ho bisogno qualcuno a capire me e essere gentili, qualcuno perfetto per me
Well, my name is Alexis Miguel Molina, I'm 16 years old and I live in Puerto Rico
And I deff hate it, its so freaking boring
I was born in Venezuela, Venezuela kicks ass
A WHOLE 100000000000000000000000000000000000 TIMES!!
im pretty social, shy at times, silent, calm, snotty, stupid, I am ALL
my bffs in the whole wide world are:
my twin, we're fraternal btw), Gaby, Faby, Sean and myself.
Though I have lived in times of pure darkness, i'm still standing and I'm grateful of that
I'm stronger than ever and I'm not gonna let some of your words change that
I can speak English
Spanish
I understand a bit of Greek
and I wanna learn Italian
since my sister can teach me now ^_^
I am pretty sensitive, in ways
i fall in love pretty easily, and my heart gets broken as fast as that
And I hate it, getting in love breaks my heart
And makes me feel stupid and like an asshole
because im pretty tooo of a romanticist and apparently, that doesnt exist anymore
Sometimes I can be pretty stuborn, and snotty, but face it, I'm the kindest person you'll ever meet
I will probably the randomest person you'll ever meet
and only of course, if u get to know me well
if u dont
cause i prolly dont like u ^_^
I dont criticize nobody, since I'm no one at all to do that
I dont like drama, but somehow, it always get to me
I do like to do sports, i love sports
my favs are:
soccer
high gliding
MX
skateboarding
I love to read, to write, to sing, and also i play the drums
I'm into literature
i write poetry
and i read (can u believe that?!)
i can be literate at times
i love when ppl flirt at me
i love feeling wanted
so if u truly like me
flirt!
And obviously
flirt with me if i flirt back
i wont flirt at just anyone
BE SURE UR DAMN PRETTY
I got bunch of fears, Ill admit that, like clows, straight guys, weird phonies, cows
when my moms acting retarded, when i am extremely bored...
but my goal is too keep up, and try to b happy all the time!!!
I'm a great person once you meet me, but probably i will ignore you if u'r truly tirying
I will add u, eventually, and if i dont talk to u, well, spare me
Ask for my msn, i'll prolly give it to u!
Specifics
Gender:
Male
Sexuality:
Bisexual
Relationship:
In a Relationship
Location:
Other
Birthday:
January 5, 1992
Interests
Music:
I can sing and play the drums.
Television:
Movies:
The Corpse Bride
Nightmare Before Christmas
Edward Scissor Hands
Sweeney Todd
People:
Just Who Matter Tery
Tery is the most amazing sister I could have ever asked for, she's always there for me, no matter what. I can accept she's a total slut, but she's the best at being my sister, my twin, and being my best friend...
Gaby
Gaby, she's the little star fallen from the sky, unique and the only star in my life. She has helped me sooo much in this world, whenever I feel like breaking down, she stands there to help me keep moving and being strong.
FaB
Fab, wut to say about her, if i tried to write something, I'd never end. We've been trough a whole bunch of things together, and that might give me the chance to say we know each other pretty well. She's the prettiest Canadian I have ever met in my life ^_^.
TaLyA
DUN DUN DUN!! She's the daughter of Sweeney Todd! she's my London girl, and also, my conscious, but she doesn't life inside my brain, she lives inside my computer... I know, my mind is controlled by THE INTERNET!!!
AuStiN
He is my Husband!! We got married in Greece and in the super cool Greek hotel we danced like monkeys and drank Mountain Dew as hell. And i kicked a waiters ass!! woot, WE ROCK!!
She's super ubber ubber duper AMAZING!!! She writes long long super hilarious messages, IT EVEN MAKES MY TUMMY HURT!!! She's a total sweetheart, and she's my spider girl, and we're Spyder Buddies!!!!! We're gonna fuck each other when we're actually together, and I'm committing suicide by lying down over her lizards.
BeAu
Beau, tee hee, he's the newest addition to my family. He is my new lil brother. We are part of a mafia, we sell sex candy, ^_^. We're gonna do a home swap, so you'll see me soon in New Zealand!!!! JK, but anwz, I love him lots lots and he's really fun and interesting. LOVE YOU LIL BRO!!!!
AbBiE
Abbie, LMAO, shes my partner in crime. We rob walmarts, and we roll in mustangs with BK crowns on our heads. lol she's incredibly cute and adorable and i love her to death!!!
Books:
Wings of Blood (written by my sister)
Notebooks Of Don Rigoberto (by mario vargas llosa)
Twilight Series (stephenie Meyer)
vanished (karen robards)
a lot more!
Drinks:
Sports:
I do MX, soccer and some bit of High Gliding. Weird, eh??
Other:
Raven Pwincess wrote me this one!!:
He's funny and he's random
and he the bestest of my friends
when your sad and down
he'll lend you a helping hand
he's more than just my bff
he is my little spider too
and if i lost him
i dont know what id do
we both love ice cream
and candy too
and i wub him with all my heart
and every word about is true !!!!
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A Recent Piece Of Art, By Myself
Life definitely takes us by surprise
They hold us by the hand once,
And then it takes us by the neck
But it never ever tells us the secret of life:
Its Meaning...
Even if our hearts are as cold and black as the emptyness
It is still tender in the inside
And we all have feelings inside.
Feelings are just another trap of life
It makes us fall and crawl
And nevertheless, cry.
I will never ever regret any of the things
I have learned in life
And every single person that has been in my life
They will always be important
Even if I hate them
Even if I love them
Even if I have forgotten them.
This is my life
And this is were I belong.
lol I put a gaint fence arounf you that says "private propertt" then if they go over the fence ossifer will get them! XXD lol welp that was kinda, dumb -.- hahaha
haha.
the important thing ish tht ur happy. thts all tht counts =)
good luck wiff ur new realtionship babe
hope it goes well
im crossing my finfgers 4 yew
xXx
<3
haha it was so cute =D
And I was like man I'd be runnin and screamin too (if everyone wasn't asleep) lol
My mom would wake up and be like "ARE YOU NUTS?!"
I'm like so excited though, more than when I drink Monster =O
*huggs you supa tight* EEEEEE ^^
OMG!!! YAY!
im sooooooooo fuckin happy 4 yew!
i new she would say yesh! haha
i just wanna hug u rite now cuz im so happy! haha
congrats sweetie!
hope everything works out!!!
=D
xXx
<3
homigod! yes silly! it was the sweetest thing ever done for me ! <3
*hugs and kissers yer cheeck* EEEEE so sweeeet! oh wow, I'm in love with you Alex Miguel
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Aww, sweetie
dont be nervous
trust me, ull b fine!
its just love. maybe she'll say yesh. she probably will
now go get ur girl babe!!!
*gives u a hug n kizz*
good luck hunny!
hope u win her heart =)
xXx
<3
