Perfection and imperfection are one in the same. Why strive for something, anything, that is really only a figment of your imagination? Perfection isn't being skinny, and imperfection isn't being fat or chubby. You were made the way you are, don't let society strip you apart, piece by piece, and tell you that you aren't beautiful. Who's to say that you aren't perfect? Who has the omnificent power to set the level and qualities to deem something, or even someone, as a state of perfection? Please, don't even begin to say that the media has that power. All the media is is a waste of electricity and paper. If perfection and imperfection are one in the same, is there really such a thing for either? Don't waste your time trying to be normal. Life is too short for that. Because if all you do is spend your time trying to accomplish the impossible, your life is going to be wasted on nothing. Embrace the dork, the nerd, the goofy, and the dark side of yourself. The best revenge against death is to live each day and extract its joys to the full, surely you wont have fun doing nothing but trying to achieve the impossible.
I'm more of an elusive person. I hide behind a smile, it's my very own invisibility cloak. The bigger the smile, the less questions asked.
Sitting on my driveway while it's raining has quickly made it's way to my favorite pass time. Other then those sparingly moments, I'm more of an indoors kind of girl.
I'm one of the few people placed on this Earth that look for beauty in everything rather then faults. You like someone for their qualities, but you love someone for their faults. I don't quite believe that there's only one person for everyone. I'm sure that with the amount of people we have on this planet, there's more then just one person for us. I think that we just have the choice to choose when we're happy and stay with that person.
I'm not exactly a people person. I'm easy to like, but it's also very easy to not like me at all. I'm shy, I won't talk to you first in person.
I'll speak my mind. I won't hold anything back. You ask a question, I'll give you the answer that comes from these eyes of mine. Don't be shocked. My honesty can be considered rude at times.
About Me
Hey, I'm Eire.
I feel like I'm a big fish, in a little pond.
I'm dying to get out of this town, this country, to the something thats hopefully awaiting me on the outside of it all.
I'm the kind of girl that only paints one set of nails because she got too bored to do the other hand. I sing at the top of my lungs when I have my headphones on, and then ultimately get embarrassed when people come up to me and say I should be a star. I may be an okay singer, but to say that I should be a star is a bit too presumptuous. Even for me, the girl that lives in only a world of dreams.
I'm the kind of person thats tears themselves apart, so not to get their hopes up.
I have a VERY small group of friends.
I seem to have too high expectations for people these days, and I won't deal with peoples shit.
The people I met online seem to understand me more then the ones I know in person.
So, consider yourself lucky if I view you as a friend. Because, quite frankly, I'm not a people person.
I'm very passionate.
But, only for a small group of things.
I write; it's my dream, my obsession, my main passion among passions.
To be a novelist would be...absolutely fucking amazing. Haha.
I'm extremely passionate about art.
Whether it be Art history, or the action of doing art, I love it.
I draw, I doodle, I sketch, I make prints. But, my forte would be painting. I paint with all medias; acrylic, oil, water color.
I'm the girl youll see walking the streets with paint all over her clothes...and sometimes her hair. Oddly, I even smell like paint sometimes.
Painting is my way to release anger, sadness. Basically any sort of emotion that I deem too time consuming to deal with. Which, of course, might explain how much time I put into painting.
Art History is what I plan to go into before my writing takes off. I don't understand how people can just pass art history off like it's nothing. It's the easiest way that we can look back and try to understand our past. Art has always been there, and will probably always be here. I mean, if you think about it, after we die, they'll look to the artists of our time to try and understand the thought process we have.
I'm hardly ambitious.
Who would want to be, anyways? Isn't that what killed Caesar?
But, I do have one ambition in life. One that will definitely not cause my death; to have my words read.
That's all I wish to accomplish, as of right now anyways.
I want my words to cause people to stop and think.
I want them to affect them so greatly that while they're walking down the street, they suddenly stop because they finally understand the hidden message beneath all of my words that have been weaved into a story.
I'm hardly perfect.
Not even close.
I'm extremely self conscious, but I hide it behind a smile.
Im not particularly religious.
I wish, with all my might, that I could believe in something that so many people can base their entire lives around.
But, I just can't. Theres too many holes, too many blank notes within religion. And, I cant even begin to place my faith in something that doesnt answer at least the majority of my questions. I can't ask myself every second "What Would Jesus Do?" to determine the path that I take.
I plan to live my life according to me, not to what Jesus would do.
I don't mind it, but I am single.
Which is kind of easy to see why. I mean, who would want to go out with a girl that has such big hopes to just leave a place and never look back. Who would want to deal with a girl that just wants to talk about how there must be life on other planets because the universe never ends. And wouldnt it be a waste of space if we were the only life in this entire solar system, or universe? And, if the Universe never ends, how far does it go? How could something never end? Might the universe be a circle? 'Cause that certianly doesn't ever end...although, it doesn't really start either...That just simply doesnt make any sense!
But, thats besides the point.
I think that if I lived during the 50's in my teenage years, I would be much better suited. Plus, I would have been able to see The Beatles play live later.
I don't drink.
I don't do drugs.
I like to run.
Who needs drugs when if you run fast enough it feels like you're flying?
I've been a vegetarian since my sixteenth birthday.
But, I definitely won't force that on you. Eat whatever you want. It's your choice.
This is me. This is Eire at her simplest.
Hate it or just learn to deal with it.
Allie [Allie-Wallie-Bo-Ballie] It's weird how much you can start to care for a person when you've never even met them face to face. And, what's weirder is that even with the distance between said people they can become best friends. :] That's what I've come to consider you as, Allie. Haha, you are not only one of my best friends, but my right hand (wo)man...so I guess that kind of puts you above others. Haha. :] You, my dear, are the pen to my paper, the paint to my canvas. I can count on you for anything; whether it be an understanding ear to rant to, some very wise advice, or just a laugh. This friendship is definitely one of those forever deals, nothing will change that. I mean, the dorks of this world are supposed to stand united, it'll be our own secret society (so those of you that have read this that aren't Allie...forget I said that, 'cause it would defeat the purpose of it being a secret society :]), fersure. You are, by far, one of ze most fun people to talk to. I love you, Allie Wally Bo Ballie (I seriously need to come up with a shorter nickname for you). Haha
Everyone else sucks beside her and Tori. :]
Books:
If I had dyslexia...I'd die
Foods:
Anything that doesn't have an active brain.
I'm a vegetarian.
Very proud of it.
I help save lives of animals every day with the simple act of refusing to eat meat.
Other:
Haha, I think she was spot on. It looks EXACTLY like me. :D
Sometimes that happens to me when I use Word instead of WordPad, which is pretty damn werid.
I still have History homework I never started on, but I can do it on Monday, its not like he'll check it anyway, he's retarded. I might get it done today if I'm THAT bored though. But I still have to touch-up my powerpoint for psych.
Rofl! :D I'm sure that would be MUCH appreciated by him hahahaha. Poor Clausewitz.
I slept pretty well, [I'm not trying to brag, I'm just saying.] And I woke up around 6am to the sound of the rain against the window, which made me want to sleep some more, so I did until 9am. Haha. Then I woke up and rushed to do my math and psych homework, and then I talked to Sage on AIM, which was hilarious. Thennn I started cleaning like woah, and fixed my room a bit. Then around 3pm, my sisters and I went to Forever21 and bought sweaters and I bought a pair of skinnies (: They're so cute.
Francias ;) Haha. My friends are all taking French this year, I'm like "woah." Because they already took two years of it, which is the required amount, so I'm like "why would you want MORE!" Lol.
What's the book you're writing about for English? I was contemplating on starting Breaking Dawn today, then I decided against it for some reason. I hate this. Haha.
Rofl! I'll be sure to send you it when I finish. I'm just working on editing the video to make it shorter because my powerpoint can't be that long, and if the video I'm showing inside the powerpoint is more than like 30 seconds I'm screwed...and it's a seven minute long video! But I only need the first 17 seconds of it lol.
I watched Martian Child. Just Now.
It was a spectacular Film.
But as For the Rest of the day I am Sure it will consist of me using the internet, Family dinner, Showering and then Attempting to fall asleep. I am out of Sleeping medication, So I may Not fall asleep tonight, Unless I can fall asleep the way Normal Humans do.
What about you?
Oh and I have not read that book. And Now I don't think I will attempt it.
Haha , I did finish my book and math homework, so I'm alllllll happy about that.
Dar stayed up with me to do so, because he had to finish his as well, and he bought me a frapp (; So nice! ^__^
I just finished talking with my friend on AIM, and she said that I sit next to her :D! in my English class. And GET THIS! we only have 12 people in the class, all of which I know! So I'm like...not nervous about that anymore haha.
I can't belive 2Face broke his arm, lmao. But you know, that's pretty cool he's letting you draw all over it :D! Feel spesh! Haha, you should draw that dinosaur you had up on Paint lolol :D
I'm really happy for you about your ballet class! I'm lost though, are you taking it at school as an elective [which would be fucking awesome if that's the case] or is it like an afterschool sorta thing elsewhere? Hopefully you have bought them by now, which I'm sure you did.
I hope that you don't get anything on yurrr fayce before the party lol. That ALWAYS happens to shay. She got this pimple on her nose right before school pictures, lmao I felt so bad. But I laughed because I'm nice (;
I'm going to start reading Breaking Dawn soon I hope. I'm still kind of nervous for my classes at my home-highschool...just a tad. And I still don't have a locker yet, so I need to ask the office to re-print me a schedule because it would be on it by then.
Anywayyyy. It's like 10.23pm so I'm off for now (:
Thanks for the heads up!!
I wont burn my eyes watching as assy movie.
Ok, lol Pinnapple express it is!
Thank you for saving me from the evil stupid movie!!
I owe you my life....I guess I wont eat your leg then.. o=)
~Audrey
Haha, trueeee.
We were shopping for chips and dip and I told my sister to get bean dip, and she looked at me and gave me a cringe look. So then we went to the salon and she FINALLYYYY got a damn hair cut. Haha. She hasn't cut it for ...almost 3 years. So I was like FINALLY!!!! Lol (: It looks sooo much nicer now.
OiVey. That does sound harsh. But I mean, you had to do what you had to do. I can't believe how effing oblivious he's been about your feelings toward him, even though you've told him many times how you feel for him. It's so ridiculous, as if he is in denial. I understand how you're feeling...actually I can't really say that because I'm not you, but you know. I wouldn't be able to just be friends with someone I love. Like if anything were to go wrong with Trex and I, hopefully not though, I don't think I could handle just being friends.
I wish I could've been online when you left that comment, grrr.
I hope you're okay, Eire. =/ Even though you obviously aren't right now, I reccomend you write, or run. Those two work for you sometimes you mentioned. =/
Ha
I was looking at my comment and I dont even know what I meant by bitchin lol
Aww thats cool
I wanted to see House Bunny but I never went..yet
Noooooo! Grrr! I wanted to be first to see that movie!
But, I wannna go see it, and Disaster Movie,
BUT
I did see one funny movie...........
TROPIC THUNDER!
Lol
~Audrey
Hahah, well you DID take over my Snapvine (: And I did yours.
I really don't think I'm going to be leaving many voice comments anyway, it's just there for another week and I'm taking it down againnnn xP
NOWAY.
I haven't had cheese cake in FOREVER. Muy Jealous.
Yeah, I heard vegeterian bugers tasted like nastehness. SO, I will go with what you said and try bean burgers instead. Which when I read it, I just thought of bean dip in burger-form. Lmfao.
OUCH. I would die getting hit by a pingpong like that...ouchhh.
LMAO. Poor Jerry. Sounds hilarious though, I'd be laughing my ass off the whole time.
Rawrcakes, you are not. When I have dreams about kissing someone or vise versa...they feel so fucking real. It's like "GODDAMN, STOP YOU...YOU STRANGE PERSON I DON'T KNOW THAT KISSES NICEFUL (;" Lmao.
Dude, that's how it was with me and TRex, remember when I called you and I was telling you how I'm starting to try to decrease my feelings for him until a certain day, and than ON THAT DAY he tells me how much he likes me and stuff, and wham-bam we're togethes now. Haha. I think JJtheJP is confuseddddd. I really do know what you mean about the situation being a lose-lose type. I don't really know what to tell you, except to just follow your heart. I know that's lame. But sometimes you really just have to listen to it. =]
YayYayYay! The code worked (:
I loveeeee that picture, so intenseee.
And YayYay for your Gparents comming over lol. :D
Awh (: Who in your family has red hair from your parents?
Hahahah, she sounds like Houd. That's EXACTLY what he does. To the point where I want to strangle himm!! But then I don't because there is such things called 9-1-1.
Rofl.
I've only seen 2 or 3 Harry Potter movies, and none of the Lord of the Rings ones. I feel like a lost soul because I haven't even seen the Pirates of the Carribean movies either. EVERYTIME they're on t.v I never want to watch them. I am weird.
Pshht, yeah right.
You're going to go the last day of summer, watch.
There you go, ^ I saw the picture and I was like DAYUMMM. Haha, it's so pretty!
Starwars, eh? NERD!!! Haha, I kid. We had to watch Starwars in class one time.
Probablyy.
I think he was kind of jealous that you two were having fun looking for treasure and he had to sit and do nothing and get a sunburn, while he was doing nothing. Because I bet you nobody drowneddd!
Yayyy :D I hope you have fun at the beach again todayyyy :D
I find it cool that you're interested.
It's like belly-dancing.
And then there are like 50 other dances we do.
I would make a video to show you but it never lets me upload any, and I don't have to laptop anyway. But the other ones are stepping dances with one other person. And then there's a debkeh where you're with a BUNCH of people dancing in a circle. I'll see if I can find one on youtube. Kay, so I looked and couldn't find any good ones. So I give up.
Haha :D
Yes, Yes. Actually.... I don't remember if I read anything yesterday because I fell asleep =O
Give me the URL and I'll see if I can fix the code and then I'll send it to you in a comment becauseeee I want to see the picture!
Hahahah! I love moments like that, when people think you're seriously retarded. Makes for a good laugh. You guys should've made a sand castle. I want to make a reallyyy big sand castle one day. And then live in it!
I get tireddddd. Especially dancing arabic, ohmygod. That is like hell. Because it hurts like helll. LOL. That big exercise bouncy ball sounds like a greatttt attacking device. But then I'll need to improvise with a routine... How about attacking them WOULD be my exercise routine, and then BAM I will be healthy (:
OHhhh.
I just noticed that, since I'm a junior now, I have to go to my afternoon school...in the mornings now because they switched it for juniors and seniors, they go in the morning. And then my homehighschool will be in the afternoon. BUT, whenever we have a half day on the first day of school, we don't go there. SO Technically I start school on the 3rd!! :D Hahah. I just have to double check with my friend Naj.
I just finished cleaning the fridge, and it really didn't take me as long as I thought it would.
But now I have a problemm. There's a wedding today, and my cousins called and asked if Shay and I were going with Smay as well. And Shay said she'd go regaurdless, [tat betch didn't even ask if I wanted to come with her.] And then when I said "Shay I don't know if I want to go" and she's like "ah well." BETCHH! LOL. I'm not sure if I want to go or not because I'm fasting and I wanted to go in my room and do my homework and then nap until It's time to break it. But then I could do homework now, get dressed and then go, eat there and then have fun with my cousins. BUT I really, reallyyyy want to do my homework for like the rest of the day because I also need to study for driving. SO, I just think I won't go, and do that instead.
The picture in your personal space isn't working =/
Is it the bat one you were telling me about?
I wish I was able to exercise [is that right?] everyday like that. It's coooool.
But I never have time, and I get tired running, I want to do something different.
I would love that! That's like the best part!
Haha. It's raining here, finallyyy.
It was SO damn humid today.
Yup!
I finished today, now I have tomorrow and another day and BAM I'm finished!
I bought Breaking Dawn today when I was out with Muna...I'm soooo excited to read it! But I won't be able to until I finish my AP work. Grrr.
Well Eiry, if you want I'll just call you Eire.
It doesn't matter to me, I mean if you dislike Eiry,
Why would I want to call you that way?
Haha yes, I actually read your profile.
It explains a lot but not its all.
I don't know, it just gives you the clear
fact that there is more to you than just waking
up every morning and figure you're still alive.
I really like your way of thinking.
I wonder some of those things you wrote too.
I want an answer to those, I'm just not sure there is one.
Oh, that's cool.
When you write your first novel,
you should definitely let me know.
I'd be more than wanting to read that.
I like reading quite a lot.
People don't seem to believe me when I say that.
They say my looks don't go along with my intelligence.
Or my personality. but then again people don't know me.
At all. There's more to me than my looks.
Like girls saying I'm amazing.
But they don't know me at all, so why do they jump to that conclusion?
Haha yeah I know what you mean.
Seriously why do they get an education if they're not going to put it into actions?
Haha no she's not in the military hahaha.
She's a marine biologist.
That's cool!
I'd be happyyyy moving out. Again too. Because that means you get to start fresh with your new house.
Hellyes! Gotta love added benefits!
Rofl. He is reallyyy funny. And I LOVE his video editing skills. They're awesomeee.
I want to learn!!!
I'm sure I can too, I've been doing so for years so this year shouldn't be any different, except that we have to cook more. xP
I would spread my wings and flyyy awayy.
Roflmao. Sorry, I had a moment.
But yes! I would SO want to live in a dorm. But I'm not allowed to because "I would get raped." Gosh, my parents are stupid. They think that I'm not smart enough to know things. Rawrcakes! I bet you're going to not go to a community college because you'll end up convincing your parents that you're saving money doing it your way (;
I have to cookkkkkk.
Oh, I'm fasting today haha. After today I will only have two more days I have to make up! I'm not sailing my red river, I thought I was because I felt that I was when I was at my sister's house, but it was another false alarm. I just hope I don't get it during the first week of the month like last year, because then I'll get it the last week too, and then I'll have MORE days to make up. Gr. Lol.
Haha, that's what my parents would tell me. But they pay the same amount monthly, so it won't make a difference.
Hahah, oh yeahh! The fan breaking the t.v and what-not. Funneh. I'm proud of him too! Haha. My dad spends a CRAPLOAD of money on tobacco and coal. Because he smokes the hookah.
It will be because I won't be focussed on my homework because I'm going to have to cook with Shay everynight, and clean. And if I get a job then it'll be way harder, but I won't have to worry about myself because there's a food court in the mall. But I'd be worried about Shay because she'd have to do everything. BUT I don't even have a job, so I don't have to worry about that one.
That sucks he has Alzheimer's I know what that's like. But on the bright side, the whole learning French OneOhOne should be fun xD
I don't know if I'm going to a community college first, or If I'm going to the college I'm going to first. I have to ask my older sister for help in that area, as I'm taking the same courses as her because I'm going into the same field of psychology. So I can easily learn from her mistakes.
Lol! That's good! I need to start excersing [sp] more but not until after the holy month because it starts when we go back to school [lovely] and I'm going to be too tired to think about excersing [sp].
Maybe he will end up fixing the one in your room as I would get annoyed having you in the t.v room the whole time xP But that's pretty cool about the purpleness in yo hair!
Yeah, I'm hoping he gets a reality check soon. And his reality check last time was that car accident, but I think that fucked him up more! But I like the fact he's quitting again [last time it lasted 5 months] which was good for me, no more smoke and coughing.
Yeah, Wayne State is in Michigan.
That sounds like a reallyyyyy good thing that it has your classes, AND it's a different country, AND it's still close to home. So that's really good. My dad won't even let me out of state, unless he lives with me, or my oldest brother, both of which are too lazy to even consider doing so.
That's too much work! Haha. I'll just wait until she gets it back, which should be around next week or so.
LOL! I didn't notice that! That is awesomeee. Man, SO much money was taken away from me for taxes, I was like DAYUM. You've got a long way ahead of you, but I'm sure you'll be able to reach your goal. I need a job during the schoolyear because I'm going to need money for the projects I'm doing in my afternoon school and they get so intense.
Hey Eire =].
Eh I guess it'd be fine if you call me Leo.
But make sure it's only you lol.
Can I call you Eiry??
I mean that way we both have nicknames for each other?
[Haha I know lame nickname but I have a lack of creativity and couldn't come up with anything better.]
Haha good.
I'm not the best in grammar and spelling but I really hate it when a person doesn't see the different between your and you're. . .
It just gets to me.
But anyway that's cool.
Have you written any novels yet?
And I could get a clue of that by reading your profile.
It's quite interesting.
I'm doing fine what about you??
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