snort the extacy filled with beauty off my jetting hip bones,my dear
im so fragile
so when you FUCK me
BREAK me
shove fists down my throat
and ill shower you with the buring acids inside of me
beaten and tore up
IV's filled with my liquid desire
they KILL me
kill me
im just another whore in this murderscene
in this orgy of exoskelotons
there thoughts
RAPING me
raping me
ill do anything to be thin
i wana join this anorexic moshpit
i want to
die
i wrote this for my best freind/sister courtney... i love you to fucking beautiful pieces..
*i will always be the mikey and you will always be my gerard*
LOneLy nIGhtS
laying down alone, only my senseless hands and mind to keep me comapany
i think of filthy things
secret things
as my mind opens to let the sins out
my legs effortlessly open to let them in
the contorted room closes in towards me
harshly making it soffocating and humid
biting my lips so hard, blood glosses them
it carressing my lips gently
wetness seeps from me unto my tender thighs
unto my sheets
into the floor
showering the virgin sucicidal sins
unto the ones who created them
i feel burning sensations all over my body while the blue fire dances on my smooth curves
the sweat turns into rivers
cascading over my full breasts , flowing heavely down my hip bones
my fingers swimming in the ocean of bliss
my choice drifting from me in bright and loud sparkling flashes
bursts of moaning and screaming
and the insight to extasy
all given to me
from me
tears spill gingerly from my bloodshot eyes
all the saints and deamons in the world
look like blurry stars and supernova planets
the universe of sexual pleasure is in my room
there words sprinkle down on me like lithium raindrops
i am turning into such a drug addict
this feeling is too great to supress
to ignore
i must have more
i must have more
exhaustion fills my bones
my trivial joints fail me
crippeled i fall unto my bed once more
drenched and infested with the sins
i think of filthy things
secret things
and i wish to share them with you.
Brotherly LOve
use me
control me
damage my insides and outsides too
twist and contort me in every single way possible
and even in the end, when the sun turns into a sliver of light in the horizon
i will still love you.
tear me into pieces
steal everything and anything from me
leave me behind, even when im screaming for you to come back
to not desert me in the dark ,alone with the monsters
and even in the morning, when the smell of new beginnings arises
i will still love you
fuck me over, agian and again
lie to me, lie like its your new obsession
create a mass destruction of my dreams
rape my compassion.
and for all my years i sit alone at a table for two holding a teapot filled to the brim with forgiveness
and there waiting
i will still love you
it does not matter how many brusies and open scars you leave on my heart
it does not matter of all the times youve failed to think of me
of everytime you have said you hated me
screamed disgusting phrases into my damaged ears
and spit on your little sisters face
it does not matter how many tears i have shed
and embraces you have walked away from
your my big brother
my only brother
and i will still love you.
About Me
i am always up for a chat.
[Originally by Nirvana]
I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Or maybe just happy
Think I'm just happy
Maybe I'm just happy
Think I'm just happy
My heart is broke
Can I have some glue
Lend me a hand
And mend it with you
We'll come around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And have a hangover
Have a hangover [x3]
Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
The soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up
I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Maybe just happy
Maybe I'm just happy
Think I'm just happy
Maybe I'm just happy
I think I'm dumb [x8]
"All Apologies"
[Originally by Nirvana]
What else should I be
All apologies
What else should I say
Everyone is gay
What else should I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married
Buried
I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezeburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
[x2]
Married
Buried
Yeah, yeah yeah yeah
[x13]
All in all is all we are (All alone is all we all are?)
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
not fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
Specifics
Gender:
Female
Sexuality:
Bisexual
Relationship:
Single
Location:
United States
Birthday:
November 30, 1992
Interests
Music:
placebo.mickey avalon.minus the bear.the hives.mika.evanessence.red jumpsuit.hawthorne hieghts.afi.fftl.the used.the postal service.the doors.avendge 7 fold.panic@thedisco.nirvana.smashing pumpkins.sound garden.underoath.alexisonfire.the forecast.muse. the beatles. jet.30 sec to mars. aerosmith. boy george.oingo boingo.tbs.billy idol.armor for sleep.red hot chili peppers. korn.kinky.the brazilian girls.the acadamy is....alice in chains.la ley.shakira.romeo and juliet soundtrack. romie and michelle high school reunion soundtrack.nightmareb4christmas.westside story soundtrack.la sinfonia. no doubt.janis joplin.incubus.head automatica.death cab 4 cutie.orgy.oasis.u2.cafe tacuba.norah jones. billy holiday. joss stone. nelly furtado.santana.flyleaf.r.e.m. paramore.rise against,senses fail.a perfect circle.blood hound gang.circa survive.queen. the offspring.at the drive in. say anything.the black maria. anatomy of a ghost. the bravery.foo fighters.80s new wave, alternitive.oldies.grunge.emo screamo. 90's 50's 60's 70's, latin, french,porteguese music. rock. techno.indie.britpop, lots n lots more...
Television:
rockos modern life.fuse.logo.cartoon netwwork,nickalodeon. csi.unsolved myseteries.cold case files. the office.indie movies.
Movies:
300, 28 weeks later, 50 first dates
A:
all adam sandler,will ferell, and ben stiller movies.
american pie 1
austin powers
ali g
B:
bridget jones diary 1 & 2
birdcage
basketball diares
boys
bambi
bad news bears
C:
clue
clueless
crash
cheech and chong
D:
donnie darko
drop dead fred
dodgeball
dakota fannings movies
disturbia
E:
eragon
ever after
elizabeth
F:
fast times @ ridgemont high
friday 1 & 2
G: gia
garage days
gladiator
H:
holes
I:
i am sam
J:
jack black and johnny depps movies
L:
liar liar
latin kings of comedy
little miss sunshine
M:
maria full of grace
madagascar
mean girls
man in the iron mask
N:
nightmare b4 christmas
night @ the roxbury
O:
orange county
P:
pans labrynth
R:
rocky horror picture show
raising victor vargas
real women have curves
romie and michelles high school reunion
romeo and juliet
running with sissors
S:
sky high
swim fan
superstar
shaughn of the dead
T:
the sound of music
tim burtons movies
the girl with the pearl earring
the breakfast club
the cable guy
team america
W: winoa ryders movies
westside story
wedding crashers
waynes world
Y:
youve got mail
People:
emo gay guys. little sisters jean wearers.my flist. those are my weakness, smiles..
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Books:
the house of the scorpion, the red tent,desperation,esperanza rising,go ask alice
hey, I love what your profile is up to, sexy picture mm, lol. Yeah, it's been a while, I do have myspace, it's currently under a bit or renovation, but when I'm done I'll add you, gimme the link to your pageroo.
<3
I haven't been able to get on msn cuz my comp has a crazy virus on it or smthin and my roomie doesn't have msn and he's all anal about me downloading shit to his comp...i'll see what I can do tho cuz I wanna talk to u soon. I miss my lover hehe : )
It was definitely a good time too after i got off the phone with u....he did me for like 2hrs it felt so good and u kno how bad i needed it that nite hehe ; )
Hey! Nope, it's winter over here for us. But we have a short-ish holiday after each term (about four times a year). I'm on a two week holiday! Yay! Hmm, I play a lot of Jack Johnson on my guitar just because it's good guitar music. I hate Jack Johnson. I also play Red Hot Chili Peppers, Radiohead, Muse (very difficult, though...I'm still learning it), Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson...I tried writing my own songs but they didn't turn out too well!
sorry 4 da late reply (again!) grrrr
so yea i jut had sum things i had to work out...but ill try to be on more
i hope we get to talk sooon!
n i bet ur summer will get better
well i hope it will...
xxx
lol i wanted to cry when they were shaving theyre "parts" and stuck them on the guys face. that was soo funny but i felt so bad.
haha i hope they make a third one.
and bam margera is amazing :]
