Sometimes the most real things in life, are the things that can't be seen.
Its funny how many people are led to believe you are who you say you are over the internet,
it's so easy to just go onto google and find an image of someone who's appearance is
'perfect' but in reality your personallity is terrible. If people don't like you for you, then
thats their problem, dont change. The internet is twisted, and at least half of it is
based of perverts or porn, does that not tell you what sort of a world we live in?
One thing's for sure, after my experiences in life so far im holding onto what i do have.
A beating heart. The rest of everything is up to me and the way I live my life. Don't
throw something so special away by selling yourself over the internet.. And even
though I know people enjoy the attention they get by guys drooling over your clevege,
there is more to life than you think there is.
 Im Erin
I told myself that i wouldn't try to explain myself to people I have never met before, but I guess the fact that I am telling the world about who I am having never met them, make's the idea so much more appealing. I will try to only eat organic things, not because im picky, but because i want to know that what im eating isnt full of chemicals and crap, also so i know stuff like chocolate isnt made by little kids in africa .I like to smile..alot, I get the impression that just by walking past someone and smiling, might brighten up their day, even if it's just a little bit, little thing's like that can potentially have a much bigger effect. I love winter, the rain, the oversized jumpers, and the warming cuddles.. Ironically, i have brontophobia (fear of thunder) which I wish I never had, it's alot worse than it sounds. I am a christian, which means I love Jesus, it does not mean I will do everything right, it does not mean i'm perfect and it also does not mean i will constantly talk about my faith, being a christian dosen't make any difference to the fact that I am still human. Over the past two years I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder.. and bidreocholic attacks, which basically means normal everyday things become a worry for me.. and i guess i find this website as a sort of escape from that, something that I have controll over. So i'm probably really boring you with this, but if you got this far, i'm extremely impressed, and when you add me.. tell me that you have read it, it will get you browny points (haha). I probably should also let you know that i have a huge obsession with apples. I find it really sad that when people you know, become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to talk for hours, and now you can barely even look at them. I completely overuse the word sweetie or sweetheart, don't take it in an offencieve or patronising way..it's habit. I have started to notice the amount of fakes on this thing.. one of them was my best friend on here.. but guys, it's got to stop.. stop hiding behind someone else's appearence, people won't like you for it. I don't know if this is just me.. but recently I have noticed that being 'original' is starting to become quite a trend.. the big hair, all the piercings, the fashion statement.. sure I would love to be like that.. but, i'm not going to label myself as being anything, I am just me. Wow, so this is alot of writing, and i'm just about done. If you manage to read all of this, you should get a medal.
'I was searching for a cause but i never saw you coming,
everytime we touch i can see that there was something in you that i really need to keep,
i would anxiousely await untill i saw you coming pretend,
i wasnt interested but really i was dying to see you and speak my mind.'
And then he went and broke my heart, not with words, but with a single image.
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