ok this is me sorry about the no pic at the top it was a bitch so i thaught of this lol XD
umm.. well here is some reading for ur brain these r my feelings so yeah XD
I feel so cold and so alone
Sad and angry because I'm on my own
Nothing's right, just living in fright
Can't find the light in my jet black life
Scared I might do something unforgiving and wrong
I'm breaking down and I can't keep it up, much less stay stong
I feel hopeless and I don't think I'll ever get back on track
I'm losing it, one of these days I'm going to crack
A dark cloud always hangs over my head
Every new day is one I dread
Pain is all I ever feel
Will my wounds ever heal?
I feel trapped and I can't be released
So enclosed, I just want relief
Darkness has fallen upon me, it' like being suffocated
All the goodness within has been obliterated
It colors my world to a deep dark grey
Oh why won't it go away?
My heart feels hard and heavy like a stone
This nasty won't leave me alone
All of these monstrosities are driving me insane
I grow weary with every passing day
I feel hurt, angry and scared right down to my core
Maybe I should erase my existence and just let go, then i won't feel this way anymore
because I'm sick and tired of my sorrows
and feeling so empty and hollow
I'm falling, falling down
My head is spinning round and round
My life went down the drain, washed away and disappeared
Never to be regained and never to reappear
It's all my fault it cant be restored
I broke it and now its all distorted
I'm sick of this life, I'm just living a nightmare
So much turmoil, i can no longer bear
I'm locked inside my misery and I can't escape
I've tried to break free but my thoughts are warped and bent out of shape
I should go off and be by myself
My poisonous agony is like a plague and I don't want to infect anyone else
Alone I cry
Alone I bleed the night
ok well kids i dont have a pic cuz this shit wont let me put it up but if u want to see wat i look like just ask me or go to my myspace page.......................................... www.myspace.com/xlivingxinxagonyx ............................................
well one thing u should kno about me is that i may have a little crush on hayley williams XD
well if u dont kno me well this guy was my all time hero so yeah here u go read
Casey Calvert lead guitarest/vocals/screemor for Hawthorne Heights
Death of Casey Calvert ;____;
While on their headlining tour with Escape the Fate, Amber Pacific, The Secret Handshake, and The A.K.A.'s in Washington, D.C., guitarist Casey Calvert was found dead on the band's tour bus on November 24, 2007. The band had kicked off their U.S. tour just the day before in Detroit, Michigan.Toxicology and autopsy reports state Calvert died of Combined Drug Intoxication. The official statement issued by the band says that Calvert died in his sleep and that his body was discovered before the band was to do a sound check prior to a show at the 9:30 Club in Washington, DC. The band was devastated. They took a couple days off to write a song about it, never completing said song. They plan on working to finish this song for their next album.
Hawthorne Heights guitarist Casey Calvert died due to the "acute combined effects of opiate, citalopram and clonazepam intoxication," according to the just-released results of an autopsy performed by the office of the chief medical examiner in Washington, D.C. The autopsy listed Calvert's death as accidental. Dr. John Mendelson, a pharmacologist at the California Pacific Medical Center Research Institute, told MTV News that "Cases like Calvert's are so rare that they're almost nonexistent. It's so rare that you can't even put a number on it," and that It's exceedingly rare that 26-year-olds die of anything medical. This kind of death is one in several million." Both citalopram (also known by the brand name Celexa) and clonazepam (also known by the brand names Klonopin and Rivotril) are prescription drugs, the former an antidepressant and the latter used to treat seizure disorders and panic attacks.
Drummer Eron Bucciarelli issued the following statement:
From the time of the incident we suspected a possible drug interaction as the cause. Casey wrestled with depression for as long as we knew him. He saw numerous doctors and took an ever-changing array of medicines to get better. He finally had his depression under control. According to the toxicology report, the cause of death was due to a fatal interaction between depression meds, anxiety meds and an opiate. Opiates being mentioned along with the term "substance abuse", coupled with "rockstar" stereotypes immediately conjure up images of hard drug use and addiction, which simply couldn't be further from the truth in Casey's instance. What the toxicology report doesn't show is that prior to us leaving for tour, Casey had a root canal, and was prescribed Vicodin (an opiate) for the pain. Once again, Casey was not involved in anything illegal nor was he a substance abuser.
JT Woodruff has stated that "We won't add another guitar player or add another screamer", and that "In our albums, it'll always say 'Casey Calvert: guitar/vocals.'" Bucciarelli stated in another interview that, "We don't need another screamer...If the fans want screaming, they can provide it themselves
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