How would you feel, if every sign of an opening to start fresh, was immediately
closed right before you opened your mouth to utter a sound of an apology. An apology for
what, you ask? For everything you've ever done in your life to cause someone to hate you
the way they tell you they do, every single day. What could cause someone to care so
negatively strong about you? Whatever it is that I've caused, I would greatly like to take it back. [Even if that means my existence.]
Because when you do not get along with the people you are made to live with to such an
extent, not only do feel like you've let them/yourself down; But you feel unworthy of their
presence, you feel like you do not matter to them anymore, and cannot change your ways
to know that they'll feel pleased with you in any way, shape, or form. [Even if you are not in the wrong.]
How would you feel, if your screams were put to silence because they no longer want to
listen to you anymore. Or, when they do...they take your words out of context and
manipulate them in order to get you into trouble for things you're not responsible for.
Or to simply make you feel stupid, and it works because in the end, you do feel stupid.
Stupid for trying to reconcile what was slowly lost over the years. More so, what was never there. [Stupid for even trying to bother.]
I feel just fine. Despite everything, I've come to understand that life goes on.
Maybe not for the better, but not for the worse either.
That is what I've learned and I am well aware of my actions now.
You have to grow and learn from the mistakes you've made in the past. [Even if you do not know what they consist of.]
I have nothing to hide, and nothing left to loose. I am who I am, I am not perfect, but who is?
I will never treat you unfairly, I know how that feels. I will always try to see things from your
point of view. I will offer you a hand when you need it most and I will not backstab you.
I am trustworthy, but I do not trust easily. I do treat others the way I'd like to be treated.
I will keep your deepest, darkest secrets and I will never judge you. [I am no better or worse than anyone else.]
Hi, I'm allie. And I'd like to befriend you.
That is, if you let me in.
+sixteen. +straight. +sophmore.
WTF xx allie xD [I won't hesitate to block you,] [if we've never spoken before.]
Do not ask me to comment your pictures,
I think I can do that on my own. :P
Life is but a staircase of contradictions, You will soon find out.
About Me
I am nocturnal.
It doesn't help that I'm a little afraid of the dark.
I'm afraid of heights. I'm afraid of being lonely,
I am afraid of rejection, and I'm afraid of being forgotten.
I'm not sure I can conquer those fears, trust me I've tried.
"Cowards die many times before their deaths;
The valiant never taste of death but once."
++Julius Caesar- Act II, Scene II.
likes;
watching the rainfall. calm, quiet and peaceful moments. reading in my room. listening to loud music. meaningful conversations. meeting new people. friends &+ hanging out. non-akward silences. thunderstorms. cold weather. winter &+ snow. traffic jams. hugs. jaymz, my hoebag [: sneezing &+ sore throats [but not at the same time.] being phunky-random. rocking out during long car ride. racing shopping carts. ice cream sandwhiches. the month October. long comments.
dislikes;
humidity. being annoyed. waking up late for school. narrow-minded-ness. being forgotten. procrastinating. bugs and ants. mushrooms or tomatoes in my food. coffee. people who yell at me. short-hand typing. when people shove their religious beliefs down my throat. ignorance and arrogance. hurting others. my dad.
Specifics
Gender:
Female
Sexuality:
Straight
Relationship:
Single
Location:
United States
Birthday:
March 3, 1992
Interests
Music:
Main Bands:
30 Seconds to Mars. A Day To Remember. Alesana. Alexisonfire. Anberlin. April Sixth. Atreyu. Augustana. Breaking Benjamin. Chiodos. Cobra Starship. Destroy the Runner. Evan's Blue. Forever The Sickest Kids. Hawthorne Heights. Linkin Park. Maroon 5. Matchbook Romance. Mayday Parade. Muse. One Republic. Our Lady Peace. Panic! at the Disco. Paramore. Scary Kids Scaring Kids. Secondhand Serenade. The Audition. The Killers. The Myriad. The Receiving End of Sirens. The Used. The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Yellowcard.
People:
Jaymz;
You are the hoe to my skank. You're pretty much my best friend on here. Our chats are hilarious; Wayy too many insiders to even list, but I'm sure you know what I'm talking about (; You're always there to make me laugh and cheer me up when I'm in a not so great mood. I know I can trust you with anything and I'm grateful to have met such an awesome person like youself. I'll always be there for you; you can count on me. HomoErectus! (:
Yes, I like to read. [[: [Stephanie Meyer.] +Nicholas Sparks. +Mitch Albom. +Ellen Hopkins. +Elie Wiesel. +Mariah Fredricks. +Hilary Frank.
Currently Reading: The Kite Runner.
Places:
By Sonja.
Because She can sing, and YOU can't. (:
Love you Sonj. [: x3
Other:
I most likely won't add you.
if you have no intentions of talking to me, do not accept.
if you send me short comments like "yo, wuu2, wzup.",
and "tLk Lyk3 d1s." I will delete you. I did not sign up to
this site to have an over populated friends list, thanks. Oh, and do not send me private messages, you perverts.
oh haha,i thought it would have just been allison or something. thats my little sister's name.
aw,well i hope you feel better! i woke up sick,but im all better now :}
Lol yes oddly enough, there is.
Its dubbed in Arabic.
With an Egyptian accent, to be exact.
I actually WAS on the floor crying of laughter.
I strongly STRONGLY recommend watching it XDDD
To tell you the truth....
Esther is a little confused about his gender.
Lets all be nice to her, mkay? ^__^
This weekend, my ex is in town >.<
That should be funtimes.
What about you?
damn i finaly got the song out my head then i go and read it
and BAM back it comes!
haha yeaaah... my sister told me i hav to go to the ball
she said everyone has to go to their 6th form ball .. you just have to
i talked to brian and he didnt understand why it bugged me so muh that he said he would take lexi. silly boy
yessss ill take you haha then we cant rock out to panic and it will be RAD!
now bens not going eaither soo gotta find two more people. i hate my friends haha
haha well yeah that to
lmao good on dar. i miss my brother randomly comming home in the wee hours of the morning. good for entertainment. why did he hav to go and move away haha
gosh allie get back in tune with your community!!!!!!!
ewwwwe creamcheeeseeeeeeee
ive been watching kim possible
havnt done my homeowrk yet my teachers gonna go nato haha
i should prob get started
Haha, okay dokay fine you win, because you never know. Since you are older you might give me an atomic wedgie and my butt cant take that......again. xD
Yeah I have noticed that, that's why I log into MSN and see if he's on. And then he said he would like to have a three way conversation with us to and him. :]
Um sure. Its official.
ALLIE SNIFFS THE STRONG CRAYONS!
:D
Psh stop hatin on my applesauce loveness-ish-esteresting-licious-ness
:D Vanilla pudding is okay, I eat it once in awhile. Wow that was weird, I just got invited to this msn Chatroom thingy adn i was like 'what the hell' hha it was funny. Oh and I'm talking to Tommy. :]
Gloves! I have those plastic glove ones and i always blow into them and make them huge. :D
i dont think i have tried those.
Hahah yes i am shamed, bad lauren bad, not just dont get caught. :]
Hahha 0o0h be quiet, pudding is eww and applesause rocks peoples dirty and stinky socks!
There's nothing wrong with baby food, i eat it all the time! No wait i dont haha. :D But you get the point.
-eats chips- Yummy. Thank you. :]
Hm maybe get a sweater or mittens?
I always lose mine for some reason, I guess I am irresponsible. xD
But I try. Doritoes are a bit too cheesey sometimes.
Eww pudding = yucky!
No actually some are good but I think applesauce is better at least for me. :]
:o Chips? Share? :]
Nothing really just noticed your comment like right now thats why late reply, but just listening to HelloGoodbye and helping my dad with some chores and shizz,
Hm maybe because everytime something goes wrong and I am the only one in the room, and I say I didnt do it but I did, haha but that rarely happens. Hm i want a snow cone. :]
I dont really know why I mentioned those, since I dont really like them xD
Grr now I wan Recess Puffs or whatever they are called.
Haha, true or else she wouldnt believe me because I 'always' lie, which is soo not true. :P
And of course I will share my money with you and then people will be on our command, that would be even better, like you can tell them to get you a twinkie and all of them will! haha.
A bracelet is awesome yo, does it say anything?
:D
Thank you. Now all I need to do is show my mom that I do read and not just a lazy couch potatoe. :]
Haha. :o Maybe I shall tell them to make those, so then when you are hungry you can just eat part of your bra! haha that would be funny, I will make milllions!!! :D
I know me too, tss you started it. :P
Yeah it bugs me too. >.<
I still dont know what I'm going to do or what I want.
Hm buy her a gift card from the 99c store haha kidding, no one would want that. xD
