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my name is stevie. lately i've been in a funk. i'm happy for a short period, then i get depressed. just because i smile and laugh and act like i'm okay. i'm not. i'm that person that feels alone in a huge group of people. i don't know whats with me lately. my room is a mess, my clothes aren't folded, i'm not painting, i don't blare my music anymore, i just am not happy? i don't have a job anymore, i got fired. i'm pretty much just living life one day at a time. i wake up at 6am- Go to sleep around 7 or 8. i sleep my problems away, its how i deal with things. my biggest priority in life is education, then my physical shape, then friends and family. i'm starting new habit, most bad, but i really don't care. i'm learning a lot of things that i never knew before. i'm single.. not with anyone at all.. don't even like anyone for that matter. i honestly don't want to date until college, because there are NO, i mean NO mature kids in highschool. its kind of ironic because college boys are just as bad. i don't do drugs, i don't drink. i'll give you a lecture and statistics if i care about you and you're doing them. i have my opions and you have yours. i guess i'm kind of judgmental. if you do something just one time, i fully believe that you will do it again, and then again, until it consumes you, and takes you down. kinda like love. i walk around the school halls wearing sweat pants. i don't dress up for anyone, i have no-one to impress other than myself. i rarly wear any type of hardcore makeup unless i'm going somewheres. i honestly believe when i turn 17 all of my problems will go away. i honestly believe when i get my car all of my problems will go away. i always want to run away from things like problems and such, i can just drive to where-ever and just get away. i need to get away. i need to get away right now. but i can't. i like tattoos and piercings and drummers.
i like to paint, take pictures, draw, laugh, smile, go to church, drink coffee, dance in the rain, watch movies, eat, hang out
correction. i used to.
i'm just not stevie anymore. and i don't know when i can be her again.
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pichas?
lovers?
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