| About Me |
Okiies well i am Sarah. And so heres some stuff about me!! yay!! lolz (jk)
*i am a Cupcake addict
*i luff kool-aid
*i talk to little
*i fall in love WAY to easily
*i am random
*i am confuzzling
*i dont really understand a lot right now
*i am trying to find myself
*i am me
*i want someone who will love me
(DISCLAMER: I get hurt easily so dont fuck with me)
I am Sarah. I am 14. I live in Texas. This is part of my lifes story. Hope yew dont get too bored. I was born in a hospital room at 3:00am October 6th 1993. when the doctor cleaned me off I wasnt screaming like a normal child. Everyone in the room was quiet. My mother began to cry. But then, the faintest cry could be heard from me. Tho I was small and purple and blue, I was heatly but premature, something my mother had not realized before. They kept me under a glass box in a room full of other soft crying babies. When I was carried home I was healty as ever and strong. Then we moved to nabraska and I met Teddy. Teddy was my next door neighbor and almost immediate best friend. But by kindergarden we were uprooted and moved to Denver where I started elementary school and was mocked and teased almost everyday because I wasnt as pretty as the rest of the girls at the school. The only person who was ever nice to me during those times was my bestie, Nicole. We made plans to be with eachother forever even when the one comes over crying cause her BF hit her or that she was prego. We vowed to be there for one another thro thick and thin. But after 5th grade graduation, I was switched to privet school. I was crushed that me and Nicole wernt able to attend the same middle school. But then the most wounderful guy moved into the neighborhood. His name was Jake. At first we were friends(for a year) but by 7th grade he asked me to be his GF. And OF COURSE I said YES!! By the end of the year I was totally in love with the boy but he started to become distant and never really talked to me. One night while I was at my friends slumber party he called my cell phone(which was at home on my bed) and I missed the call. When I went home the next day I found my mother and Jakes mother crying in front of my house. At that point I was very confused. I asked my dad what had happened(he was at first confused but then looked at me like he was about to kill meand he did). Jake collapsed under all the stress in his life and commited suiside. I spent everday for six weeks crying till 2:00am. But a girl named Brae was there for me and(even tho her friends were immature jerks) I began to like her(as a friend). By 8th grade we had become closer friends and her friends booted her out of their clique). That year I was admitted 6 times to the hospital, but I managed to keep my grades above a C. but the more kids at my school made fun of me or started rumors about me because I was always sick, the more I became non-talkative and scared of my peers. Soon I wasnt even able to stand infront of my class and present speeches and when anyone that was popular talked to me I would respond out of fear that whatever I said was going to be resaid and everyone would start the rumors up again. Josh was also their for me as a brother tho as annoying as he was he did help me. At the end of 8th grade I was fully sure that Brae and I were soul-sisters as she put it. And I developed a small crush on her the more I helped her thro relationships and her the same. But it was too late when we finally told each other our secrets. I was moved once again but now to Texas, where I am currently resideing. Thats when I got word that my really good friends Chris and Danylla had a beautiful daughter named Carissa. I was IMMENSLY happy for them. BUT then I was surprised again to hear that Chris would love for me to be his daughters godmother. I said YES!! And about screamed I was so happy(thats the only time I wish I couldve stopped time and lived in that moment forever). Then I began to use teenspot.com. on this site I made awesome friends(Holly, both of my alexs lolz). Alex and I were CHOWDER obsessed buddies and the more we talked the farther I fell. But things werent going to work so we both decided on friendship only. I am happy that he is still my awesome friend(he always will be). Brae is still my awesome friend and we can have a laugh-attack for hours on the phone and still not think we are as crazy as we know we are. I was just reciently admitted to the hospital again but was able to leave at 2:00am. Lolz. I am so happy for all the blessings in my life even if it has been a bumpy ride. Only I still feel as tho part of me is missing and I wish I had someone to fill that whole in my heart. And I know that one day the right guy will come along. And as I have heard before the best things are worth waiting for. Thats my short condenced version of my lifes story. Hope yew enjoyed it if yew actually made this far. Haha =) love yew all and thankiies to all my buddies for helping me thro the days. =) ohz and now to add to my story i have met some amazing people. people that i liked. people that have broken my heart. but now i have found the one person i know wont hurt me. my awsome boyfriend Darryen. he mean a LOT to me and without him my life would be kinda empty and scary and sad. he is always there for me to lean on and he's awsome cause he just rocks like that. he is basically the one thing thats keeping me from going totally insane right now. i owe him a LOT for being there for me. for helping me. and for putting up with me. teehee. one day i hope we can actually meet!! ily.
i am SO confused right now and im not exactly sure how to cope with it. my heart is BROKEN to little tiny pieces but not from just one person but from SO MANY people. and i dont get it. how i can hurt on the inside so much but feel compleatly fine on the outside. ans the more people talk to me and tell me things and mess with my emotions, the more i cry. and the more lost i get. and i feel as tho im fading away. maybe i need to just get away. go somewhere. maybe back to colorado to be with my true friends. or maybe just to cali to visit my mom. but whatever is eating at me really is putting a damper on my mood. so sorry if i seem mellow and boring right now.  im attempting to find myself.  lolz
okiies also about me im really into retro stuff.  i think the look is so awsome and just so "wow" yew know?? lolz =) another favorite of mine is SUNGLASSES!!!  i love sunglasses and wear my oversized black pair EVER time i step outside. i also wish i knew how to use this site better then i did. haha. =P also i really LOVE photography!!! expecially black and white photography!!!! 
Breathe in deep
And say goodbye
The saddest song
I'll ever write
For anyone, anytime
Now we wait
Cause August had to end
All our bags are packed
Just two broken hearts
That got caught up in this
I deny
That tomorrow you'll be gone
And so far from me
It's something strange
Never love the same way
Please stay-ay-ay
Won't you stay-ay-ay
Tonight
part of the lyrics from Augest is Over by We The Kings. I love that song SO much! it just kinda makes me think about life and like relationships and stuff. and it just connects with me. and I LOVE We The Kings!! they are my second favorite band. A.F.I takes number one on my favorite bands list. teehee. =)
Watch the stars,
Turn you to nothing.
Now blush and smile as they whisk you away.
Part your lips a bit more,
I'll swallow your fear.
I will show you how.
All the bite marks impress
A need to be here,
A need to see.
City lights, like rain,
Dance and explode.
Fall upon debutantes
Reeling from nights that
Kiss and Control,
All of our, broken hearts.
part of the lyrics from Kiss and Control by A.F.I. these lyrics I really LOVE they seem to connect to me. they are just such beautiful lyrics in my opinion. And A.F.I is a really good band. they can make yew feel their emotion just by listening to their songs. its really beautiful!! |
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| Specifics |
| Gender: |
Female |
| Sexuality: |
Bisexual |
| Relationship: |
In a Relationship |
| Location: |
United States |
| Birthday: |
October 6, 1993 |
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| Interests |
| Music: |
BrokenCyde, Jeffree Star, Zombie Nation, and KutLess |
| Television: |
MTV, VH1, E!, and CHOWDER |
| Movies: |
 The NightMare Before Christmas, Big Daddy, 27 Dresses, The Matrix, Van Helsing |
| People: |
 that is Alex!! teehee he is my awsome CHOWDER buddy!! =) he is REALLY awsome and sweet and cute(shh)hehe and i could tell him anything in the world(even if its the weirdest in the world) and he would laugh and think im crazy but he'd still be my friend after my crazy moments. he is awsome and makes me laugh. he's the nicest guy i know so DONT yew DARE hurt him!! teehee
 this is holly, she is amazingly awsome and she is there when i need a person to talk to. she is very coolio and if anyone hurts her there will be consaquesces(wow spelt that really wrong sorry) lolz. =)
 that is alex(a.k.a my cookie bud) okiies so i basically JUST met him but he is so awsome and is a total sweetie. he is VERY random and funny. he gaved me a RAINBOW hehehe. he is just awsome(i have no other words to explain him sorry) but yeah he rocks and if yew break his heart i'll break yewrs. teehee
 this is Darryen. he is awsome and sweet and kinda mysterious. i hardly know him and already i like him. the secret is that he doesnt know he's on my page of people(shhh teehee). he makes me smile which is a good thing and i wish i could teach him how to dream again....but im not sure how. neways he is awsome and if yew mess with him there will be problems for yew. hehe =)
 that is Alex. grr he is awsome. he is kinda hyper like me and we talk about weird crap. he has a very beautiful girlfriend named chelsea and i have to add her still haha. but he awsomeriffical and if yew hurt him then trust me...chelsea and i will come after yew and it wont be to party. teehee =)
 that awsome girlie right there is Brae!!! she has helped me thro a LOT in life. she was there the first time i had my heart truely broken. when the first really horrible thing in my life happened. she was there thro my many hospital visits and all the rumors. she helped me live thro the days and was and still is a VERY important part of my life. i hope that we can remain friends cause she an awsome friend and to lose her would be like loseing more pieces of my heart. i am so glad that we became friends!!!!!! RAWRR i luvers her!! teehee =D |
| Books: |
 Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Vampirekisses 1-4, Dracula |
| Places: |
 anywhere where i can dream =) |
| Foods: |
 Strombolli, Pizza, Spagheti, Lasagna, CUPCAKES |
| Drinks: |
 KOOL-AID |
| Sports: |
CHEERLEADING(not really haha) street hocky(i suck at it and the puck hurts like hell) softball(i was mvp on my team) volleyball(the ball hurts when it smacks yew in the face lolz) skateboarding(yes i do consider it a sport along with scootering-tho i dont have a scooter haha) |
| Other: |
 the dreams behind me have left me in tears, and i know as i get older in years, the memeries that we have shared, will be something that cannot be compared, if yewr still there even when yewr really not, then yew will forever in my heart hold a spot, because the care i feel for yew, is nothing but old news, forever and ever, i will forget yew never.(probably a sucky poem but i felt like writing that lolz =) )
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July 20, 2008 |
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