| About Me |
Hello my name is Eric, but can all call me Rickey. Im an FtM, Trans-man or Transgender person. Please dont hate me before you get to know me. Thanks ^ ^
Ok now thats out of the way, Im gay ^ ^. I find that women no longer turn me on. sigh- I was bi but as time moved I found that the more cunfoterbal I was with my body the less I wanted to be around women. I have been struggling very hard with my gender, and it was only recently I relisted I wanted nothing more than to be the man I always knew I was. At this time I have yet to start hormones or surgeries. I have been cross-dressing fro about a year now and have most of the time passed for a boy, and have just bought my first binder and packer. yay ^ ^. Im a very easygoing laded back person. I dont do put downs or crities people, so please dont do it to me. Im usually not a big talker, but if Im talking about something that gets me up set or Im interned in I can talk your ear off. Im very shy and quite, but Ive been told Im a big flirt. I just moved up to IL to live with Tom and his family. I was also planning on taking some college classes up at SWIC. I had kept my gender disfora to myself for a long time. When you grow up living with a woman who is very girly and wants a girly daughter, it is hard to get anything across to her. I never grow up poor or beaten, though silents is the worst killer. From the time I was nine I was able to feed and bath myself, often times locking up the house when Cara and Jim were coming home late. I was never one to be seen in dresses and frilly things. I liked warring paints, having short hair and playing with cars. Some days I wish I had pushed my need to be a boy more forward, then suppressing him. I was fighting a battle that had been won long ago; the battles to make Cara not only love me, but also are proud of me. Deep down I know I would never gain her love, and I feel it was that relation that stopped my desire to do anything. I failed all my classes from kindergarten up through high school. I was labeled mentally challenged and my will to live was lost along the road. I tired killing myself numerous of times; only to wake up on a hospital bed. I was scared to say what needed to be said. I was afraid of the boy who wanted, no; need so desperately to come out. I was braking at the seams and I was slowly dying. I had no social life, and I had no family. I took refuge at a local animal rescue place. There I found the freedom I need. The birds I took care of had no care in the world that I wanted to be a boy, they loved me. For the first time in my life I exspernd uncondial love from another living creather. It was also there I learned to give love back. I had one sears boy friend at the time. I found are sex life acwored. I did not want to poke; I wanted to do the pocking. Im going to fast forward to present times, not wanting to further bower you. Better to die standing, than to live on your knees. that is how I feel. I would rather die standing as the man I truly am, then on my knees as the women I was born. I know that I am better than most men out there, and I sheer as hell can fuck better than them too. ^ ^ lol. No just kidding, but I do give awesome BJs. ^ ^. Hummore about me:
I love animals
I found a temp place to stay
Still looking for my own crib
Got a Job ^ ^
love all kinds of music
I love reading and writing
Hum..
Thats about it if you want to know more just ask ^ ^
Ernest 'Che' Guevara
- Better to die standing, than to live on your knees
-Let me say, at the risk of seeming ridiculous, that the true revolutionary is guided by great feelings of love
-It's a sad thing not to have friends, but it is even sadder not to have enemies.
-I am not a liberator. Liberators do not exist. The people liberate themselves.
- There is no other definition of socialism valid for us than that of the abolition of the exploitation of man by man |
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| Gender: |
Male |
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Gay |
| Relationship: |
Single |
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United States |
| Birthday: |
October 24, 1990 |
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| Join Date: |
May 23, 2009 |
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