I live for the days when I feel alive. When taking the long way home is an adventure, not a chore. I dream of travelling the world and seeing all the city lights from mountain tops. I'm an analytical person, I think too much about everything. I'm paranoid, depressed, and anxious, but I'll barely ever let you see that side of me. I want to live to see the day when we can turn on our televisions and not see children dying in our streets and people being being blown up by suicide bombers. The day when we can walk outside and breathe FRESH air. So put down your gun, take the extra step to make a difference in our world. The future is now. I like argumentative people. People who are willing to die for what they believe, excluding those who kill others for what they believe. I have a lot of respect for people who know exactly what they want. That doesn't mean I agree with what you stand for, just HOW you stand for it. I have religious beliefs, I think for god only. I don't descriminate against people because of their views.
I'm pretty average, I guess. You'll never fully understand me, you'll never fully understand anyone, really. I'm constantly changing, learning from my mistakes. Everyday contributes to a new me. As far as looks go, I don't think anything special about myself. I'm not conceited to any extent. I like wearing pajamas everywhere and I don't care how lazy it makes me seem, truth is, I AM lazy. People are too quick to judge me. I'm actually a deeply intellectual person if you look a little beyond my attitude, etc, etc.
I've come a long way in life. I'm not here to argue about who's been through more shit, I don't care how many beers you drank at a party, how much acid you drop, or how many pills you pop. At the end of the day, you're just another human who has human emotions and who makes mistakes. My problem in life, is I have a short attention span with everyone, including people. You have to keep me interested, or you just start to annoy me. Recently, I ridded myself of those who are counter productive towards anything worth something in their lives. I can't stand people who make the same mistakes over and over. Don't let my chipper exterior fool you. I can be a bigger bitch than you probably think. I don't hate a lot of people, and I don't really say a lot to the people I do hate. Why waste an emotion on someone you don't care for? Don't like me? Take a fucking number. I don't care what you think of me. I don't care if you think I'm ugly, or fat, or annoying. You can deepthroat a knife. I don't have time for people who will bring me down more. Wanna hold me back from my goals? I suggest you get the fuck out of my way because you're bound to get trampled. I get what I want, I won't have it any other way.
I'm devious, I'm innocent. I'm generous, I'm selfish. I'm as deep as outer space. I'm insane, I'm totally down to earth. I'm daring. I'm peaceful. Welcome me, Ashley.
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