( . . R.I.P BUBBAH DEVONTAE MURRAY JAY WIHONGI . . )
( . . 10-12-07 - 24-05-08 . . )
I pray for my baby who never got a chance at life, For reasons I do not understand, Why you was taken away so soon I will keep you close in my heart and pray your life will be bearalbe .. It hurts so bad and I still do not understand Why ? ! My thoughts and prayer is with you DEVONTAE .. Love you 4eva ...........
As i slowly walk down the driveway, not knowing what will greet me, my eyes fill with water and my legs begin to quiver. I find myself weak in the knees, breathless and thoughtless. I slowly reach for the door and turn the cold handle not knowing what to expect. I then see you, wrapped up in one of your favourite blankets. Why? Is the thought that comes into my head, I breakdown. I run towards you and grab you, holding on as tight as i can. Your cold, i put a beanie on you, socks, mittens, but yet you're not getting any warmer? I wait for you to wake up, wait to see your gorgeous eyes, your perfect smile? I wait and i wait but i see nothing.
Why you, my precious little angel. Your smile lit up my life, your girlish cry made me laugh, your amazing presence was indescribable. As i watch you sleep, holding you in my arms, a gush of wind strikes me, it opens my eyes and i realise you're never going to wake up. I lay up late at night, tired and restless, i close my eyes and all i see is you lying there, motionless. I then open my eyes and remember seeing you looking at me with your gorgeous, perfect smile. When will my nightmares end?
I look back on all the times i got to spend with you and remember how much of a happy boy you were, how joyful you were, you were perfect in every way possible. I will always remember you and look back at all the photos. What hurts is knowing your not coming back in this life, i'm never going to get one more kiss, one more cuddle, nothing. You never got to crawl, take your first step, say your first word, you didn' even get to make it to being one. You're like the sun, just like it lights up the world, you light up my life.
Yet even though your life was short, it was filled with more kisses, more cuddles, more laughs and more smiles anyone would experience in a lifetime. You have the face of an angel. Your like the wind, i can't see you but i can feel you, just like i know your always with me. If i had one wish it would be to bring you back here, where you're supposed to be. I can't explain how i'm feeling, all i know is you completed me, seeing you made me happier than ever. All i'm left with now are the memories, and miss you is all i can do.
Letting you go is going to be hard baby, and i know i won't ever fully let you go, but time will tell. Sleep tight my darling, and i love you with every bit of my heart, top, middle and bottom. I'm never going to be the same without you here my precious, but i know you're safe. Missing you like crazy my darling angel. You're my everything.
Rest in peace Devontae Murray Jay Wihongi, 10th December 2007 - 24th May 2008. Gone but never forgotten, spread your little wings my angel, your forever in my heart. My love for you will never end.
written by Auntii Hayley xxxxx
LOVE u always bubba DevOn xxxx
( . . My Brava Areka & Devontae . . )
( . . Devontae . . ) That smile of yours was so special Bubbah, that smile always seem light up the ROOM oa light up our day .. But that's the last smile we are ever going to see .. As the day goes by i'm gettin weaker and weaker, can't at all except the fact that you ish gone bubbah .. Gonna miiss thos Kiisses, hugs that we shared T O G E T H A .. it really suxz losin somebody that your lykk really close too !! Losing you wow that was the hard est thiing ever .. Well the special babii that you are I guess the lord just wanted you up there wiv hym so quickly ! Hym taking you away from your family has left a biig hole in our hearts. I know your up there with your great granddad and I hope hes nawt workin you to hard haha .. Love you so damn much hun !
( . . Areka . . ) He's the 2nd old est out of my bravas, so I love hym 2nd best haha ! When I grow up I maybe want to follow in his footsteps eah ? ! He's such amazing brava to me we have a sister and brava bond haha . . He's been so supportive, ever since Devontae had gone I have taken it pretty hard, so he has been there by my side .. Arks love you so damn mujc and thanks for everything eah .. He sang at my nephews funeral .. He sang ( . . It's Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday . . ) So everytime I listen to that song I just start cryin !!
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