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I do not think that I am anything special or any better then you. Keep that in mind.
I really am nothing extremely special. Anyone with 2 minds and the simple concept to pick up a brush can achieve my look. I am maturing and letting go of things that I once found important. This is who I am, and this is my life. I cant be mislead or foolishly blinded by a lifestyle that will only take me so far. I am anything but simple, but not nearly as complex as you'd think.
I'm 90% superficial along with cheap temporary thrilled habits. The other 10% of me is what I intend to find, and intend to grow in. Get me alone, see through my exterior, take a second look at me, and I'm just a normal guy. A normal guy with a mouth like a sailor, who drinks way too much, doesn't sleep nearly enough, and who wants to make sure that you are every bit as happy with me as you were when you were young and careless. Its not too much to look at, but it can promise you a lifetime of smiles. at least I can hope.
Saying last goodbyes, letting go, and being ignored are my biggest pet peeves. They are things I've dealt with all my life, and I am only in the market for meeting people who can pleasantly change my outlook on this awful habit.
 In life, you are going to fall in love, and you are going to know how it feels to have your heart completely ripped out. It is inevitable. But it is only you that can grow from your mistakes and allow yourself a second chance. Excepting the good in with the bad is apart of making this decision. I'm still waiting for my second chance.
I want to know what its like to parasail over a beautiful blue lake on a cool sunny morning and close my eyes to feel the wind on my natural bare skin.
I want to know the fear of jumping off a 15 story bridge with nothing but rocks below me and a bungee cord attached to my ankles, and feeling relieved that the worst is over.
I want to know how it feels to hold a baby lion in my arms, and to experience that power that even natures biggest killing machines are at one point still young, pure and hopeless. -Or to swim with the dolphins on a summer day and just feel completely safe and overwhelmed at the same time.
I want to know what its like to wake up next to someone you are absolutely head over heels in love with and to just stare into each others eyes and get lost in forever, and talk the day away with it only feeling as though one minute has passed.
I want to know what its like to find happiness not only in myself, but in this crazy beautiful world.
I feel Ive done everything else, and I want to experience life in a completely radical way.
Every morning that I wake up is my new beginning. I am simply just waiting for my wakeup call.
I find it hard to write concisely about myself as my opinions and moods change frequently, much to some people's annoyances. My mood is unpredictable, sometimes I'm not always happy and sometimes this is for no apparent reason but I try and put this behind me and face the world with a smile! I do things which I learn from, but never regret. I'm a strong believer in the fact everything we do happens for a reason, and so I do not dwell on the past. A lot of people I see in 'real life' live empty lives where they are afraid to stand out from the crowd. People stare at me and my friends in the street, sometimes these people seem so angry and full of hatred it is quite worrying but I only know this is because they are jealous because we can be who we want to be, not who society forms us into being.
I remember drawing and painting everyday when I was a child, I would fill entire sketch books with wild and imaginative drawings and cover the walls with them. This has never quite left me, I think the feeling of expressing myself through artwork, whether this be painting or photo-montage, is absoloutly amazing. My development into photography was quite natural, I do not see it as something I do as it is a 'trend' or because everybody else is doing it. I find it rewarding and I know I have artistic skills which I intend to put to full use.
I am a very thoughtful and quiet person on the most part. It angers me when I am asked why I am shy in certain situations, I do not always feel the need to fill the room with noise and I will speak to you if I feel I have anything of worth to say. I have very strong opinions on most things in this world. Homophobic people anger me; knowing there are people out there who deliberately insult and have hatred towards someone because of their sexuality infuriates me.
I do not feel I am better than anybody, yet a lot of people have some sort of impression that I think I am too high to speak to most here. I lead a fairly busy lifestyle, answering repetitive questions on here is not high in my priorities. If you came to me with something interesting to say I would have time for you. I love meeting new people who have opinions, even if sometimes they contradict my own as I believe we can all learn a little from each other. It is such a shame that in this day and age most people are so close minded and full of hatred which stems from seemingly nowhere that most people cannot seem to communicate adultly.
If you actually read this whole thing, tell me.
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