Where do you turn when everything goes wrong? I can't say I know, I'm still spinning in circles trying to find my sense of direction. I have nothing left, because I gave it all away. I'm tired of pretending I'm happy, I want that moment in life, where the smile on my face is real. I'm not giving up till I find it. I'm an idiot, and I can't speak for myself, I wont try and impress you, I don't have nice things, I don't have name brand clothes. I have myself, to answer to when things go wrong, I have myself to question when I don't have the answer. I was raised in a broken home, my father was a drug addict, so he picked drugs over his family. My step dad, was in a dirt bike accident and killed. (I don't want your apologies, you probably wouldn't give them anyways) I appreciate the little things in life, I don't look much towards the big ones. I want to know how the future is, I want to know how I get to my future, but in all reality, the future can change in just a second. There is no knowing. I'd rather not get to emotionally attached to anyone ever again, I feel like I can't function with out you but life goes on, and I'll remember what we had. I want to be remembered as someone, not a nobody, or that one girl. I want to do great things with my life, but I doubt that will happen because I don't have the mind state to do anything. Any who, I'm done killing you all with boredom.
When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, its not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end
People:
Sam, cos she's like, okay not like she is my best friend, she's a sister to me, I love her to death. I don't know where I'd be with out her, she gives good advice, and makes me want to hold on when I want to give up
Jade, cos she knows how to keep me happy, I love you so much I don't really have a clue what I would do with out you.
Loosca, cos she's amazing, and she always knows how to make me laugh, and she's a great friend once you get to know her, A:D I love you
Ew TomFace, even though everyone thinks he's a jerk, well actually he is a jerk, but he has his good days, he's a funny guy Ihysomuch
Stevie, I don't even know what to say about you, you're so awesome, and you'll always have a place in my heart no matter what happens, you're a great friend, and you always know how to cheer me up.
Courtneyface, cos your damn well amazing. You lifted me up when I was way down, you showed me love when all I felt was hate. I love you, a lot. I'm sorry for everything I've done to hurt you. You're amazing, and I miss talking to you ):
Other:
I don't care what you think, what do you think about that?
Ouch, having the only girl you've fallen for live away must hurt :(
I guess I'm quite lucky. I mean I've actually seen this girl as we both met in Amsterdam. But now we're E-mailing and stuff I feel myself becoming quite attatched to her :/
We have talked about meeting up again but meh I dunno when I can get to her in Canada -_-
Hmm well it's a good thing in a way as we actually talked over everything that happened and have a better understanding of it. But she's the only girl I've ever fell for so it is kinda awkward having her as a "friend"
I have no idea what to do about the other girl though. Like you said it's just one of those things that are kinda unstoppable.
Yeah stress kinda makes me feel like a nutter too. Lately I've been like mega confused. I'm back on talking terms with Debbie again but I'm starting to have feelings for someone who is like a million miles away from me -_-
Bleh.
Aww well I guess the whole school/ what we're going to do after school is something everyone our age has to stress about at one time or another -_-
Heh don't worry, this scar has given me some laughs already though... Like the other day my flat mate really wanted to see it so I gave in and like lifted up my shirt but as I did that my mum walked and from her angle it must've looked like he was groping my boobs o_o so we both just acted like nothing was happening for some reason and then later she was all "y'know if you're feeling sexually confused you can talk to me about it..." etc etc.
Aww what are you stressed about? well as long as you're gonna be ok I guess :)
I'm ok thanks, just mega bored and I hate seeing a 10 inch scar on my chest >_<
YesYes. I went under His_Royal_Psychotic-Ness. And of course I was a lovely little fake in looks and gender but not personality. <3
I find I'm more confortable when people view me as male.
