MA SORRY FOR 2009... SORRY TA EVERYONE I EVA HURT, PUT THROUGH A LOT, HAD WORRIED BOUT MII I AM SORRY, YOU CAN NOW SLEEP WIT OUT DA THOUGHT OF WORRYIN MA LIFE IS CHANGIN SLOWLY... MAYBE I WILL DIE B4 I CN GT IT ALL TOGETHA BUT DNT WANNA DIE WIT OUT SAYIN SORRY FA EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE CAUSED NUN OF DAT, ALL DA LIES EURTING... I CNT MAKE YU FORGIVE MII BT I AM ASKING FOR FFORGIVNESS... 2 MA GUH... I AM SORRY I DO NT TLK MUCH ON DA FONE ND I HAVE TAKEN DAT TA DA HEAD SO I HOPE ND PRAY DAT ONE DAY YU CN C ALLL DAT I AM DOIN FA YU DA CHANGE EURTING IS FA YU BABY....My new poem/song Living for you
Waking up to the same old story
Can't anyone change the writing on these pages?
You say your leaving where are you going?
Your running through this maze with nobody else
I'm living for you I'm living for this
I'm living for everything that I've ever missed
I'm changing my mind
I'm leaving it all behind for you
Get up get up
You always say that you've had enough
What are you searching for what are you praying for?
I'm here and letting you know
I'm living for you I'm living for this
I'm living for everything that I've ever missed
I'm changing my mind
I'm leaving it all behind for you
This will break our chains holding us down
This is when we raise ourselves from the ground
And this is where we finally find ourselves..... dats da end of dat now sumthing else
Living Gay
Gay as in Happy or Gay as in Homo?
Whenever you hear the word gay the first thing that comes to your mind is? Lets all be honest, the thing that comes to mind is a guy who prances around, wears makeup, and talks like a valley girl. Most people would laugh at that thought. The word gay has gotten a very different meaning then what it once had in the times of our grandparents or great grandparents. It has become a stereotype that most people dont want. I for one think it is a shame that in todays society there are still certain people who feel the need to keep their self hidden from the public eye. I think that anyone should be able to walk the streets holding hands with the one they love without having a sea of eyes wash over them along with the rude and unapproving looks. There are people who have to worry about that every time they leave the house.
Living a gay lifestyle is also not easy in public. There are many people and places where I would feel uncomfortable being myself around. It takes time before I am able to show any type of PDA (Public Display of Affection) with a certain person. Its hard to even go out to dinner without some people glancing over at your table. I think it takes a lot of bravery to shun everyone and just focus on your happiness.
Its mostly hard for younger people to deal with the harsh attention they get for their lifestyle. Teenage years are the worse years to deal with when it comes to being gay The average teen worries about when their boyfriend/girlfriend will text them, passing chemistry, and who they will go to the dance with. But a gay teen has more difficult issues to deal with, such as keeping quiet about their crushes and acting like someone their not just to be accepted in the horrible world of high school. Its hard to be happy some days when you feel like such an outsider. I guess that when you are gay as in homosexual it takes a lot of effort to be gay as in happy.
I personally think that no straight person will understand what a gay individual feels and goes through each and every day. I can try to explain all the little details, but the truth is the only ones who know what Im talking about are the ones who are just like me young, insecure and gay. But I hope that one day people who are gay can walk the streets and see approving smiles and friendly waves. Until then I will be more than glad to make sure I focus on myself and my happiness and less about people accepting me because as long as I be myself I will always find someone who will love me for who I am.
awww.. babii thats so sweet like really..
i feel the same way i wish i was there ..but ill be there soon babii
and yea you always go be daddy...
i love you too babii always and forever
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