Becoming depressed from school..help?

[Chr0n1k-Ch1m3ra]

Hi everyone this is my first post at TS. Well my problem is I have been going to my current school for 1 year and a half now and since day 1 I have absolutely loathed it. I came back from the first day in tears and it hasn't gotten any better since that day. I am leaving the school in 2 years which is great, but thing is I'm extremely depressed and on the verge of becoming emotionally unstable (if you catch my drift). Every lunch and morning break I sit by myself like a lonely little tosser. Why? I have no friends. Why? Because they're a bunch of immature assholes! Every break time i'm sat down by myself on the ant-infested concrete floor watching people kick around bottles of chocolate milk in my general direction, occasionally hitting me and getting me wet. I then have nothing to dry myself with but my hands and I end up reeking of chocolate milk for the rest of the day. I have tried time and time again to make friends with these people EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT INTERESTED IN THEIR FRIENDSHIP, just so I don't look like a stupid little loner. But every time they make a fool out of me, doing something stupid like "Aww give me a hi-5! Yeah good little boy!", talking to me like I'm some kind of autistic 8 year-old. I'm f#cking 14 years old and intelligent! These days I just leave them hanging, I'm not going to put up with that crap anymore.
My biggest issue right now is two things. One, I have absolutely nothing to do at lunchtimes and whatnot due to lack of friends, getting teased at by little year 7's and 8's and made a fool of by other year 9's and asked by year 10's how much I wank. I could play a game on school laptop but then some smartass will come and either Alt+F4 or press the power button, ridiculing me again. I could hide near the gutters but it just reeks of trash there, and the occasional year 7 would come and spray me with a water pistol. And I could go to the library, but it is closed on Wednesdays and Fridays so what about then? Plus people try to steal my bag, and one kid even sat on my face once!
And second, before class the teacher is always 5/10 mins late and the whole class goes into a RIOT until he/she gets there, also people ridicule me then, stroking my face, hair and even my junk. Asking for high-5's even though I have no idea who they are. People constantly pushing me from all directions, spitting on my shoes, stepping on chewing gum. There's no space at the far back of the line to get away from the trouble because the classrooms are so tightly packed together, and the corridors are barely wide enough for two people. What do I do then?
I have had my hair fall out twice this year and once last year, every morning I have chronic diarrhoea and feel nauseous from the anxiety. I have become more pale over the past year and skinnier due to lack of appetite. I think it's only a matter of time before I break down and end up suicidal. I can't rough out another 2 years of this, changing schools isn't an option, and I am not going to make any more effort making friends than I already have, I spent half a year trying and got ridiculed, so for the whole time I've been at this school I've been by myself.
And in case you were wondering, this is not a troll. I'm deadly serious and in serious need of help and support.

[SpencerKingsleigh]

I'm sorry, I've never been in a situation like this, so I can't tell you what I've done, but I could tell you what I would do? If they come up to you and touch you etc. give them a straight face and say don't touch me, in a serious voice. If they laugh and continue to do it, which they might, push their hand away and say louder, I said to stop. People are afraid of confrontation, the only reason they tease you is because they think they'll get away with it, so don't let them. Stand up for yourself.

[smurphdabomb]

There's 3 solutions... Passive, Assertive, Agressive.
At the moment, it seems your being passive cuz you're not fighting back. To be assertive in this matter, tell them to leave you alone, if they don't, go to the superintendent, principal, Dean of Students, or the SRO (student resource officer) and report them all. Or be Agressive and fight them, to show you're not afraid, and you can hold your own, proving your strong will make enemies, but people might see the hell you're going through and stand by your side...

[creaturedtake3]

I didn't read all of this, but the last paragraph with the sickness in the morning from the anxiety and whatnot sounds like IBS, or Irritable Bowel Syndrome. This causes you to get sick to the stomach and have diarrhea and/or vomiting when nervous or anxious or scared.

Also, stick through school. It may be hell while you're there, but it will be worth it when you finish. I'm a dropout myself and if I could go back in time I'd stick through it. Sure, I have my GED but I still missed a lot with good people.

[AnHonestGuy]

"Nihl Infra Minus Nullo Est"

Vaguely translated from latin, it says "Inferior to nothing, superior to no one"

I live by that quote every day. It means that we are all equal, all of us are human and no one deserves more or less than the person next to them. We are all equal in our own right.

I know what it's like to hate your life, to want to be rid of all the pain. To be that loner no one wants. Life can be hard sometimes, but it has its way of coming back up.

You know what? There is life after depression. I live it every day.

I know what it's like to be that awkward, angsty teen. And I know that you can come past it. It just takes time.


I'm here for you, as a friend. You can email me at sarfthemagnifico@gmail.com or add me on skype (I have it on my phone so we can talk pretty much any time of day, but I'd prefer if you messaged/emailed me first so it isn't public).

I also run an ask-advice blog on tumblr if you want to drop a question anonymously or if you question my authenticity.
http://ask-adviceandblog.tumblr.com/

I do hope that you feel better, and have an extremely good day. And, even though I don't know you, know that I love you, in the most brotherly and humanly way.

"Think to yourself that every day is your last. The hour to which you do not look forward will come as a welcome surprise." - Horace

With greatest love and compassion,

Cameron, The Passionate

[AnHonestGuy]

Apparently this was made back in August...

Friend, I hope you're still around to see this...I'm sorry I didn't see your post sooner...