My parents seperated.. now what? :'(

[xxariyelxx]

My dad is an alcoholic but he is a good person and a good dad.. he struggles with drinking. A month ago he stopped and things got better, but just recently he got back into it and now my mom is stressing out. Last night they had a big fight and said it was over. I cried and cried all night, started thinking of suicide.. I was also angry at God, cause I've prayed and prayed for this problem to get better. I hoped that we would overcome this and be a happy family and live a happy life, but things took a turn for the worse. :'(
Right now i'm currently looking for a job because if my dad loses his, how will we get by on things? I don't wanna be homeless so all I can think about right now is taking things into my own hands and trying to hold our family together.. i'm scared, i'm heart broken, its like i'm all alone facing this problem. It tears me apart knowing that my mom is in pain, and my sister is still so young and shes just on the side watching all of this happen. She shouldn't have to worry about this kind of stuff, she should just be a kid and have fun, she shouldnt be worrying about these kind of problems we're facing. D': and my dad, hes literally drinking himself to death, i'm scared what do I do? ;'(

[absterx3]

The same thing happened to my parents. You just have to realize that your dad drinking obviously hurts your mom enought to make her not want to be with him.

You cant control what happens so you just have to live your life for yourself.

It has been 5 years now since my parents split and my dad is stil battling alcohol and there is nothing I can do about it. He chose that over his family and thats his choice. Its hard to lose a parent to it, but its their choice.

[Mystified_Love]

My mom chose cocaine and drinking over us when I was about 3. She was absent pretty much my whole time growing up. I don't like who she is and tend to avoid her. I don't exactly know how you feel because I was so young going through most of it. But it's true, you have no control over what happens. But I do wish the best for you

[Kaili7]

Pretty much the same thing here. I love my dad, but he does enjoy alcohol a little too much for his own good. My parents really different people. My dad likes to kind of sit down, enjoy a book (an a drink of course...) and watch TV kinda thing, where as my mom wants to get out and do stuff. Due to my dads problem, my mom is a lot more snappy than she used to apparently be. One moment they are talking then the next shes yelling at him. Mixed with the drama of normal teenage life and stress, its a lot to deal with. I thought about hurting myself once, but really, what do you get out of it? Just hurt, and maybe a couple of scars- totally not worth it. We again had the same thing, where it got better for a short time but then my dad started lying and hiding stuff again. I was so frusterated, but like other people have said, theres nothing you can do. Maybe talk to your dad? Tell him your feelings and subtly remind him of the risks. I know my dad hacks away (almost like a violent cough) and I'm aware of the health risks too. For now, be strong for your sister. Do lots of things that will distract her (and you) from whats happening. Find a new hobby, etc. And I know its a bit uncomfortable, but if you have a friend you truly trust, go ahead and talk to them a little. It helped me to know one of my friends knew what I was going through.
My parents were never actually married in the first place.
Hope things get better for you. If you need someone to talk to, message me. Im not trying to sound all fake and stuff, I really do know what its like. So, if you want to, I'm all ears.
That was long, but I hope it helped a little.