I'm in love with my crush and I can't tell if he hates me or not

[Stepic]

I need help. I'm in 7th grade almost in 8th, and I really like this guy. Or you could say love. Everyone says I'm in love with him. I met him in 3rd grade. All me and him used to do was argue. We disagreed on everything. He told me he hated me, I told him I hated him. Although I can't really remember much from then, but I remember I used to tell myself "I hate him I hate him I hate him" but then the next second I'd imagine me and him getting married in the future. Although since I tried to ignore the fact I liked him, I would have a little crush on someone else. Forth grade came. He was in my class again. Again with the disagreeing and arguing, and I remember back in 4th grade, I had a little crush on his best friend. In 5th grade he was in my class again. Of course, no tranquility. I was convinced that we absolutely hated each others guts. I remember I got in trouble for arguing or smacking him, or something of that sort a couple times in 5th grade. Yet I know that didn't stop me. When 6th grade came, I made it into honors classes. He didn't, but when we switched classes he'd walk past me and say hi and call me by the nickname he made for me. It's actually a nickname I didn't mind. He did that everyday, but still I convinced myself I hated him. Him and I still fought. I remember one time I slapped him in the face at lunch, everyone thought it was hilarious. I know he's forgotten about it by now. Thank God I didn't get in trouble. It wasn't until the end of the school year that I finally admitted I liked him to myself. I pinched him and he screamed "Get away from me, you probably like me!" I gave up on the hatred. I knew I had liked him all along. Ever since 3rd grade. I remember towards the end of the school year back in 6th grade. The grade that is above us was playing a volleyball game against the teachers outside. I was annoying my crush by throwing grass at him. There was minimum arguing. If I remember right, probably I had only admitted I like him to one friend back then. I had been sitting behind him kind of. He was sitting in the direction of the game and I was sitting sideways behind him. Both of us had our legs in front of us, with our arms behind us supporting us up. We were close enough that our hands were touching. Ironically everyone that was near us wasn't near us for the few minutes that moment lasted. I've always wished I could go back to that moment. Anyways, on one of the last few days of school, I had my friend tell him I like him. He basically shrugged it off. (That took place on about May 27th; on March 25th he blocked me on Facebook.) So anyways, summer came shortly, I didn't see him the whole summer. When I came back as a 7th grader, yep, still like him. The whole time, even now, my feelings get stronger and stronger. So, a lot of people found out I like him, and everyone, even up to now, keeps telling him "Hey, she likes you." He gets very aggitated. Our arguing in 7th grade got worse. He calls me, a stalker, creeper. He's called me a bitch, ***, whore, an ass, and probably more. Although for some reason he can't call me ugly with a straight face. One of the guys in his class said "Hey, isn't she ugly." And my crush said "Yeah, she's ugly as ever." But the way he said it wasn't in what you can describe a mean voice. There was a bit of reluctance in his voice. I've caught him staring at me relentless times, and he's caught me staring at him relentless times. I've changed a lot during this school year. I'm naturally hyperactive. So a lot of times people, (especially in the past) got mad at me. I was kind of a "loser". Earlier in the year, I would chase my crush around the school. One time I almost got hit by a car while chasing him. I know that I got on his nerves. Although everytime I chased him he would blush, smile, and laugh. I eventually grew out of that. Right before Easter vacation I put a note in his locker. I had a few people look at it to see if it was okay. It basically said "I know you hate me. I know everyone says I like you. You shouldn't believe everything people say, but that's true. I like you, ever since third grade." Of course that's not the exact wording. What was on the note was way better than what that said. I specifically told him not to show the note to anyone. Although I guess his friends don't count, because this one guy he's friends with knows. Also when I was texting his best friend (who apparently I'm on and off friends with) he mentioned it. I was at the park near my crush's house one day, and asked him if he still had the note. "What note?" Was what he asked. I looked at him astonished, because I know he knows about the note. That's what confused me. I don't know what that's supposed to mean. Why would he deny getting it if I know he got it? So now I truthfully can't tell if he hates me or not. I remember once when I was staying after for science, his best friend had detention in the same room. My crush walked in and asked the teacher if he could wait in the classroom because he was going to his friends house. When I looked up at him before I knew it was him, his face was terribly red and he was smiling as soon as he saw me look at him, and also when he was asking the teacher he had been talking in this voice where he was partially laughing and talking. I know at that moment I had been blushing badly. I could barely pay attention to my work. Another time, once at recess, I was turned so it would look like I was talking to my friends but be watching my crush play basketball. Although he had saw me looking at him, caught my eye and it almost felt like time slowed down. He's a ginger, so he's light so if he's blushing or not, but his face was red from playing sports but when we caught each others eye his face got redder. He briefly smiled, then dribbled the ball down the court. In reality it probably wasn't a very long moment, but to me it felt like a while. It was a short enough moment that no one noticed except, of course, me. The most recent thing that happened was him holding the door for me. I know that's probably not much, but to me it is, because I know any other time he wouldn't have done that for me. Yes, because he's that rude to me. So I need advice, I'm basically in love with him. How do you think he feels about me?

[XxHeroinAndFirexX]

1. You're not in love with him just cause everyone else says your are. Like you said he's a crush. It's not love.
2. If you wanna know how he feels all you can do is ask him.

[Stepic]

I don't feel like I'm in love with him cuz everyone says, its just cuz I've always felt that way, and if I ask he might try to make fun of me, or just won't answer me.

[ImShifty]

you don't love him... and just ask him, thats what adults do and if not you can get on with your life.

[Stepic]

I call him my crush because I'm not really sure what else to call him. I don't want to say his name. I do love him. I can't imagine being without him even if he does hate me. I know I'm young and have my whole life to live, but somehow I vision spending the rest of my life with him. He is my inspiration for about everything. I fall asleep thinking about him, I dream about him, then wake up thinking about him. He's even inspiring me to try to write a book (I only have two notebooks written in handwriting done). But I've never felt like this before. If it never happens, ill be sad, but I'll never forget him. Because deep down in my heart I will always love him.

[FilterDreaming]

No offence but I think you've ruined any chance with him you had. But if you still want to try the best advice I can give you is to go an talk to him about it. If he doesn't want to talk about it then move on. What have you got to lose? What you're in now isn't a relationship and is a waste of time if you don't get to be with him. Its better you find out how he feels sooner then later. Not to give you false hope but you also mentioned you were a bit of a "Loser" and he may be embarrassed about that. But he may still like you. I doubt it though as you seem to be reading into every single move this boy makes (which is slightly creepy).

Remember you're still young and what may feel like love now may actually just be a silly little crush you'll forget later in life. We all go through it.

Good luck.

[Stepic]

Maybe I'll just ask for myself on the last day of school, but if he says no, I know I still won't be able to move on. I've tried to move on before, it didn't work. My heart went straight back to him. Also if I must embarrass myself, I secretly cry about it at night. But I don't know if I have a chance, because people still pick on me for who I used to be. A lot of times I get called ugly or weird. And crap like that, because I used to be really weird, and what people don't realize is that I've changed a lot. So maybe even if people would stop picking on me I'd have a chance with him. Even I could just experience one day of him being mine and me being his, that would make my lifetime.

[jenntastic]

it sounds like he treats you like crap and isnt worth the trouble. id say move on. i think you're a little too young to date anyway.

[XsrdX22]

You're not in love, bro. Move on to the next one.

[Lolgirli96]

First of all, you might be, but I doubt you are actually in love. Secondly, you say you nearly got hit by a car chasing him?? That sends alarm bells to any guy. You should back off a lot, give him some space for a couple weeks, then try talking to him, hanging out with him like you would with any friend. Just don't treat him differently from any other friends, ad see if he likes being your friend, if he resists, leave him and try to get over it, if he doesn't then maybe tell him how you feel, after you've been friends a while

[Stepic]

How do I be friends with him if he won't even talk to me anymore, unless we're arguing. I mean I could start saying hi when I walk by him, but I dunno. And there's not anyone else I could ever think of evening liking but him. I mean, sometimes I think other guys are cute, but I don't like him for just his looks. My friends make fun of him (not to his face, behind his back) and say he's fat and ugly cause he's a ginger. I mean maybe he's not the skinniest guy around. But to me I think he's perfect the way he is. Except I wish he would just be nice. I haven't spoken a word to him in a long time. Basically I've been viewing from a distance recently. So I don't know if he's changed or not. And I'm gonna stop now because now I'm just rambeling.

[Qwi]

I think the best thing for you to do is tell hym becuz if you dont its gonna be 2 late and he is going to move on to another girl and itll make you feel worse yeah i know because its happened to me so thats the best thing to do.

[vholadapo]

keep looking 4

[FilterDreaming]

Okay you asked for advice. We gave you it and you're basically disagreeing or making excuses not to follow our advice. There is only so much a few people can say. You have to do the rest. If you're not willing to follow any advice then why bother asking us?

[ktim]

I think u should talk to him in private and ask him cause hes probibly rude trying to hide feelings so he wont b laughed at which I'm sure he wont but when u like somebody u feel as if if anyone knows u will b made fun of I lost my best friend cause I tried to hide my feelings for her by being meen so just talk to him