PLEASE READ!!! and comment..The Ex Girlfriend and the love of my life.. p

[SkinnyD11]

So throughout middle school until up to freshman year I never once had a girlfriend or even had a kiss... which sounds pretty lame from a guys perspective.. I know,,, but I guess i just never tried to get at any of the girls that ever chased me and flirted with me. Don't take it as oh man he must be ugly or he's gay. Many girls have wanted me I just never took chances so like i was saying up until freshman year I had never had a girlfriend. So freshman year it all started I had my girlfriend and guess what.. She was kind of a whore.. She had been with many guys and was known as a huge cheater but being innocent ole me i never thought it would happen to me, but guess what BAM! She made out with my best friend and we fought.. and then i soon forgave him because i'm not one to stay mad even though i should. So that was it with that that relationship only lasted 1 week anyways. It was gay haha. Then, came the second GF, She too got around a lot! She also fucked a friend of mine... so i dumped her. Btw kissed em both still haven't made out with or done anything but kissed 2 girls at this point and those two kisses were them. So I have had my first two girlfriends cheat on me now.. i'm feeling kinda shitty asking myself what I did wrong. Then one day I met this girl named taylor. She had a thing with a bestfriend of mine but was like the innocent girl that had only kissed one boy but had dated many. she was almost 2 years older then me and a grade ahead of me(btw i was skipped up thats why theres that age difference) so yeah she had thing with my friend and my friend for some reason had us compare heights back to back and me being smooth i kinda touched her butt lol. anyways thats how we met and from there we became the two flirtiest kids ever with each other. with like a month of flirting i finally grew balls and wrote her a letter that was extremely corny and when school ended I gave it to her told her when she left school to read it so i handed her it and booked it home! the next day she said yes so me being the happiest teen alive went on with this relationship. we got made fun of all the time because we were a little more immature then most couples. us never realy kissing or doing anything took things real slow.. so it took us 2 months to kiss! btw we started dating November 3rd, 2009 and kissed january 12th, 2010 at a basketball game. oh now remembering these things she denied me in front of her friends at the movies before that because she was scared... haha so embarassing! so things sparked after the first kiss! and we rapidly started growing more and more close spending ever second together. we quit hanging with friends and became each others best friends doing everything together. we would go to each others houses after a long day walking along the river laying down on our special rock or laying down on blankets at the botanical gardens or walking along the waterfall reaching a balcony and sitting down on the balcony overlookin the mt shasta mountain and the sac. river or climbing these boulders along a trail to get to our secret spot where wed sit down and talk for hours on end. we did so many special things together. we were kinda slow on sexual things but we connected better then either of us coulld connect with any one else. there are many more things we did those were just our favs. so about 6 or 7 months into the relationship i realized i truly loved this girl more than anything i had ever loved. she was becoming my everything and more. so after that we became more sexual we made out and did other things teens do other than go to sex and yeah haha. so in love with this girl she became all i ever thought about and looked forward to the day i gave up everything except for sports to spend time with her. so i think 9 months in we had sex for the first time.. sadly it wasnt the most romantic scenery it was out in public at the park on a bench but it def. made us closer.. and it didnt last long because i didnt have a condom and i didnt wanna ***.. it was a mistake not using a condom lol. so losing our virginity together made us become even more close than we were... So with that we had done that and that added to activities.. haha so yeah we did all of that and fell more in love with each other each and every day until about april 4th.. oh yeah i forgot to mention that we did have jealousy issues and she got very jealous because girls would always flirt with me and i got jealous because she always was with this guy named mitchell who is half a year younger then me because her family and his family are close friends and i also got upset about her ex marcus who was her first kiss. anyways yeah so we fought and bickered quite a bit too... and jealousy did progress.. plz dont judge to hard on me after all this that i tell you.. so jealousy progressed and became into huge fights and eventually i got to the point where rage would consume me and i would get aggressive towards her and like hug her and not let her go or shed walk away from a fight and id grab her wrist to stop her from leaving but id do it hard on accident because i was angry but i never purposely tried hurting her there was a couple of times where like thered be a thumb shaped bruise.... and i pinched her leg once and it left a bruise... but she also kinda got angry too because shed kinda hit me outta anger and she pushed me down a flight of stairs.. so yea theres where the abuse part i guess intertwines into everything ive said.. anyways aprils 4th we had a fight during spanish and it was over something stupid she got jealous about of girl and out of anger said i had a tiny dick and being a dude i took that as the worst thing she could say to me cuz she insulted my man hood... so us being stubborn it progressed into a huge fight and after school i made her drive me home and when we got to my house i wouldnt get out until the fight ended so we kept fighting in the car she yelled get out i wouldnt i got a bloody nose cuz she accidently elbowed me i had blood all over she was crying and she said she was done i begged and pleaded dont go but she left.. the next day at school i figured oh we are still dating she didnt mean it so like i usualy did i tried hanging with her.. she didnt want anything to do with me she stuck with what she said so for a week i followed her begging her to not leave me like a lost puppy dog... well then she started talking to marcus and mitchell... and i cried like a girl and started to become severely depressed although i didnt realize i was "depressed" so she started going to parties with marcus and hanging out with him and i had suspicions she was doing stuff with him then i found out she was hanging with mitchell too... so 2 months of her being with them one day she messages me saying she misses me.. and after a week of talking i find out she made out with marcus and et him finger her but the biggest surprise was she fucked mitchell and that tore me apart.. but even after all she told me I loved her to much to give up on her so i tried to put all that happened while we were split up behind me and move on i put her on a pedistal and treated her like my princess... and i refused to fight with her anymore we started dating june 8th, 2011 and everything was fine for a whole month it was back to normal even though i kerpt thinking about her fucking mitchell... and then on july 20th i get a call saying shes dumping me.. i beg her plz dont leave me... i bawled and fell to my knees pleading on the phone screaming dont leave me i love you dont leave but she said she had to but wouldnt tell me why.... she then hung up... i tried calling her back numerous times,, no answer... so i texted her call me this is important... this may be the llast time you hear from me ever again.. i wait... no call... so i leave riding on my bike pedaling as fast as i can with one thing set on my mind... suicide.... i rode a mile and a half to a bridge called the 800 foot bridge it was over 100 ft tall and my plan was to jump so i look over the edge and i run and jump.... boom my foot clips the rail and somehow i catch a tiny ledge that my fingers barely could hold onto and tore all my skin on my biceps and ribs on the concrete.. holding on to the rail with one arm wrapped around i looked down and started going into shock.. and hyperventilated i was too scared to fall.. so i pulled myself up feeling very weak i rode to my parents house and went into shock.. the ambulance soon came i passed out and ended up in the hospital and then was sent to a psychiatric ward that was all the way in sacramento which was hundreds of miles away so i could recover... so i was in there for two weeks then got out and was isolated in my house and couldn't see anybody for months... then i find out she started dating mitchell as soon as she dumped me and shes been with him for 8 months now and im super depressed and i miss her and every once in awhile shell talk to me fer a lil and then all of a sudden say she cant talk to me... but she always says shes in a weird position talking to me because her boyfriend and i know she misses me but i dont know if ill ever be with her again and i look at life and dont see life worth living anymore... idk i just wish i knew if id ever get a chance with her again.. i could say more but idk this is jsut crazy and no one is gonna read all of this... just comment if you do on what you have to say

[XxHeroinAndFirexX]

Completely forget about her.
You guys got physical when mad at each other, had major jealousy issues, and you wanted to kill yourself after you broke up. Those are the things that makes this a very immature relationship. She was your first love, of course it hurts like hell, bit it should never go that far. I say, stop talking to her completely, don't try to hang out with her, leave her be with Mitchell and move on. Work of yourself before you ever get into a relationship again. Gettin physical and being controlling like that is NOT healthy. It's immature.
You guys are better off seperate.

[SkinnyD11]

thanks for the opinion i appreciate it and congratz on the baby when you have it if you already haven't. Honestly I think it could be different in the future though. I just wish people could understand from my perspective... you know?

[XxHeroinAndFirexX]

Thanks ! (: I'm due in June.
And I gave you the advice i did because I had that same relationship. Like legit, EXACT relationship.
I promise you, you're young you've got a lot ahead of you, moving on and just forgetting about her and doing some real soul searching will help your life sooooo much. Take it from someone whose been through it.

[SkinnyD11]

Thats awesome! I'll def. have to check in june to see if you post any pictures! and thanks for the advice It's just really hard to move on its been 8 months and trust me I've tried but she jsut keeps coming back...

[Camaro_91_00]

Completely forget about her.
You guys got physical when mad at each other, had major jealousy issues, and you wanted to kill yourself after you broke up. Those are the things that makes this a very immature relationship. She was your first love, of course it hurts like hell, bit it should never go that far. I say, stop talking to her completely, don't try to hang out with her, leave her be with Mitchell and move on. Work of yourself before you ever get into a relationship again. Gettin physical and being controlling like that is NOT healthy. It's immature.
You guys are better off seperate.

^^This.
From what it sounds like, you guys weren't exactly healthy from the start.
It also seems that she, as I call it, 'fell out of love' with you. Which is extremely common with younger people, as you have consistently changing hormones. It isn't your fault, but it isn't hers, either.
You're young. There's plenty of girls out there.

[zachharrison2010]

So throughout middle school until up to freshman year I never once had a girlfriend or even had a kiss... which sounds pretty lame from a guys perspective.. I know,,, but I guess i just never tried to get at any of the girls that ever chased me and flirted with me. Don't take it as oh man he must be ugly or he's gay. Many girls have wanted me I just never took chances so like i was saying up until freshman year I had never had a girlfriend. So freshman year it all started I had my girlfriend and guess what.. She was kind of a whore.. She had been with many guys and was known as a huge cheater but being innocent ole me i never thought it would happen to me, but guess what BAM! She made out with my best friend and we fought.. and then i soon forgave him because i'm not one to stay mad even though i should. So that was it with that that relationship only lasted 1 week anyways. It was gay haha. Then, came the second GF, She too got around a lot! She also fucked a friend of mine... so i dumped her. Btw kissed em both still haven't made out with or done anything but kissed 2 girls at this point and those two kisses were them. So I have had my first two girlfriends cheat on me now.. i'm feeling kinda shitty asking myself what I did wrong. Then one day I met this girl named taylor. She had a thing with a bestfriend of mine but was like the innocent girl that had only kissed one boy but had dated many. she was almost 2 years older then me and a grade ahead of me(btw i was skipped up thats why theres that age difference) so yeah she had thing with my friend and my friend for some reason had us compare heights back to back and me being smooth i kinda touched her butt lol. anyways thats how we met and from there we became the two flirtiest kids ever with each other. with like a month of flirting i finally grew balls and wrote her a letter that was extremely corny and when school ended I gave it to her told her when she left school to read it so i handed her it and booked it home! the next day she said yes so me being the happiest teen alive went on with this relationship. we got made fun of all the time because we were a little more immature then most couples. us never realy kissing or doing anything took things real slow.. so it took us 2 months to kiss! btw we started dating November 3rd, 2009 and kissed january 12th, 2010 at a basketball game. oh now remembering these things she denied me in front of her friends at the movies before that because she was scared... haha so embarassing! so things sparked after the first kiss! and we rapidly started growing more and more close spending ever second together. we quit hanging with friends and became each others best friends doing everything together. we would go to each others houses after a long day walking along the river laying down on our special rock or laying down on blankets at the botanical gardens or walking along the waterfall reaching a balcony and sitting down on the balcony overlookin the mt shasta mountain and the sac. river or climbing these boulders along a trail to get to our secret spot where wed sit down and talk for hours on end. we did so many special things together. we were kinda slow on sexual things but we connected better then either of us coulld connect with any one else. there are many more things we did those were just our favs. so about 6 or 7 months into the relationship i realized i truly loved this girl more than anything i had ever loved. she was becoming my everything and more. so after that we became more sexual we made out and did other things teens do other than go to sex and yeah haha. so in love with this girl she became all i ever thought about and looked forward to the day i gave up everything except for sports to spend time with her. so i think 9 months in we had sex for the first time.. sadly it wasnt the most romantic scenery it was out in public at the park on a bench but it def. made us closer.. and it didnt last long because i didnt have a condom and i didnt wanna ***.. it was a mistake not using a condom lol. so losing our virginity together made us become even more close than we were... So with that we had done that and that added to activities.. haha so yeah we did all of that and fell more in love with each other each and every day until about april 4th.. oh yeah i forgot to mention that we did have jealousy issues and she got very jealous because girls would always flirt with me and i got jealous because she always was with this guy named mitchell who is half a year younger then me because her family and his family are close friends and i also got upset about her ex marcus who was her first kiss. anyways yeah so we fought and bickered quite a bit too... and jealousy did progress.. plz dont judge to hard on me after all this that i tell you.. so jealousy progressed and became into huge fights and eventually i got to the point where rage would consume me and i would get aggressive towards her and like hug her and not let her go or shed walk away from a fight and id grab her wrist to stop her from leaving but id do it hard on accident because i was angry but i never purposely tried hurting her there was a couple of times where like thered be a thumb shaped bruise.... and i pinched her leg once and it left a bruise... but she also kinda got angry too because shed kinda hit me outta anger and she pushed me down a flight of stairs.. so yea theres where the abuse part i guess intertwines into everything ive said.. anyways aprils 4th we had a fight during spanish and it was over something stupid she got jealous about of girl and out of anger said i had a tiny dick and being a dude i took that as the worst thing she could say to me cuz she insulted my man hood... so us being stubborn it progressed into a huge fight and after school i made her drive me home and when we got to my house i wouldnt get out until the fight ended so we kept fighting in the car she yelled get out i wouldnt i got a bloody nose cuz she accidently elbowed me i had blood all over she was crying and she said she was done i begged and pleaded dont go but she left.. the next day at school i figured oh we are still dating she didnt mean it so like i usualy did i tried hanging with her.. she didnt want anything to do with me she stuck with what she said so for a week i followed her begging her to not leave me like a lost puppy dog... well then she started talking to marcus and mitchell... and i cried like a girl and started to become severely depressed although i didnt realize i was "depressed" so she started going to parties with marcus and hanging out with him and i had suspicions she was doing stuff with him then i found out she was hanging with mitchell too... so 2 months of her being with them one day she messages me saying she misses me.. and after a week of talking i find out she made out with marcus and et him finger her but the biggest surprise was she fucked mitchell and that tore me apart.. but even after all she told me I loved her to much to give up on her so i tried to put all that happened while we were split up behind me and move on i put her on a pedistal and treated her like my princess... and i refused to fight with her anymore we started dating june 8th, 2011 and everything was fine for a whole month it was back to normal even though i kerpt thinking about her fucking mitchell... and then on july 20th i get a call saying shes dumping me.. i beg her plz dont leave me... i bawled and fell to my knees pleading on the phone screaming dont leave me i love you dont leave but she said she had to but wouldnt tell me why.... she then hung up... i tried calling her back numerous times,, no answer... so i texted her call me this is important... this may be the llast time you hear from me ever again.. i wait... no call... so i leave riding on my bike pedaling as fast as i can with one thing set on my mind... suicide.... i rode a mile and a half to a bridge called the 800 foot bridge it was over 100 ft tall and my plan was to jump so i look over the edge and i run and jump.... boom my foot clips the rail and somehow i catch a tiny ledge that my fingers barely could hold onto and tore all my skin on my biceps and ribs on the concrete.. holding on to the rail with one arm wrapped around i looked down and started going into shock.. and hyperventilated i was too scared to fall.. so i pulled myself up feeling very weak i rode to my parents house and went into shock.. the ambulance soon came i passed out and ended up in the hospital and then was sent to a psychiatric ward that was all the way in sacramento which was hundreds of miles away so i could recover... so i was in there for two weeks then got out and was isolated in my house and couldn't see anybody for months... then i find out she started dating mitchell as soon as she dumped me and shes been with him for 8 months now and im super depressed and i miss her and every once in awhile shell talk to me fer a lil and then all of a sudden say she cant talk to me... but she always says shes in a weird position talking to me because her boyfriend and i know she misses me but i dont know if ill ever be with her again and i look at life and dont see life worth living anymore... idk i just wish i knew if id ever get a chance with her again.. i could say more but idk this is jsut crazy and no one is gonna read all of this... just comment if you do on what you have to say

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[SkinnyD11]

lol yeah i know but typing that took me forever! if i would have used correct everything it would have took even longer which would suck. i rushed through it cuz i had a shit ton of homework i had to do and i was wastin time. nd ive talked to tons of girls in the past 8 months but i gave em all the boot because they didn't make me happy like her..

[zachharrison2010]

lol yeah i know but typing that took me forever! if i would have used correct everything it would have took even longer which would suck. i rushed through it cuz i had a shit ton of homework i had to do and i was wastin time. nd ive talked to tons of girls in the past 8 months but i gave em all the boot because they didn't make me happy like her..

It would take no longer to capitalize the word "I" and use commas and period. I could trudge through a block of unindented text, but this was pathetic.

[SkinnyD11]

dude don't be a fuckin dick

[zachharrison2010]

Then stop decimating my hope in the human race.

[SkinnyD11]

Hey fuck head I'm not illiterate. I'm just lazy, so instead of trying to fuck with me be useful, and post on my thread having to do with what this shit was put up for.

[Olivia96]

Wow ur love life was hard, but im glad ur ok...even though i dont know u. And u should just forget about her if shes done that much damage to your heart.

[zachharrison2010]

Hey fuck head I'm not illiterate. I'm just lazy, so instead of trying to fuck with me be useful, and post on my thread having to do with what this shit was put up for.

It takes no effort to reach a finger over to shift where capitalization is necessary if you even mildly competent, and very minimal effort to put a comma or period where it should be. However, it takes much effort on my part to sift through your incompetent ramblings.

[SkinnyD11]

Dude take your boyfriends dick out of your asshole and learn to respect people. Also dont act like you are perfect because if you look at your last comment you fucked up. If you even mildy competent. read that to yourself dick

[zachharrison2010]

Dude take your boyfriends dick out of your asshole and learn to respect people. Also dont act like you are perfect because if you look at your last comment you fucked up. If you even mildy competent. read that to yourself dick

First of all, excellent insult. And it really would have hurt if I hadn't had a girlfriend for the past three years, although you wouldn't know much about a successful love/sex life.

Second, typographical errors =/= grammatical incompetency. I made a mistake, you made yourself look like an idiot.

[SkinnyD11]

why are you still going on?!?! you are ridiculous. you came on here to troll. stop being a dick dude

[XxHeroinAndFirexX]

[zachharrison2010]

why are you still going on?!?!

Because you fail to recognize your own ignorance.

you are ridiculous.

I am correct.

you came on here to troll.

Yet you are the one everybody is laughing at, should I be jealous?

stop being a dick dude

As soon as you restore my faith in the intelligence of the human species.

[Kiralicious]

ngl, he's kinda right.
if you want people to take time out of their day to read what you have to say, then you need to write it out in a form that makes it easier to read. As it is now, I get distracted after by other things couple of paragraphs.

I want to give you advice, but If I can't get through the entire post I can't because I don't know everything going on.