Let it Out

[StupidBetch-]

Ive been here since Sunday and I haven't seen you leave to go search for jobs yet. You have a car! Take your ass to the mall and fill out applications. Go around the corner and apply to walmart. Why are you so hell bent on being a nurse? Get a job so you can at least save up money since you spent all the money from your last job. All I've seen you do is sit and lay and watch tv.

[Dioz]

Woo 6AM. Time to let people know I fuck up everything good in my life.

All over simple things too. Can't help it. Just happens. I hurt people because of it, and it doesn't make up for the fact that it happens.

Hmm. Least I woke up at 6am.. I can hear the sea. That's nice.

[Kahns]

In a pretty hideous state. It's been two days and I know I'm going to miss you so much, I can't believe you're not even in the country right now. I hate fucking Norway. The thought of not seeing you for 4 months kills me. Please come back best friend.

[equake]

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[XmurderXchaosX]

I feel like Dante is falling out of love with me. I hate this. I fucking want to just leave work and go home and cry but I can't.

All I ever did was love him. Treated him as good as I know how. I just want this to work out so bad. This sucks.

[hotgrits29]

Just when I start thinking WOW we can actually start saving money now, some shit happens and we get in debt again. Today, while I was walking down the driveway to get our mail, I noticed something was leaking down the driveway, a lot of water. Turns out it our septic tank. It's overflowing and will have to be pumped, at the very least. And now our driveway smells like ass.
It's great that David's parents are letting us stay here for only $300 a month, but I'm starting to think that with all the shit that we keep having to fix in this house, we would have saved more money if we were renting somewhere more expensive that took care of all maintenance issues for us. That's what a renter is supposed to do, right? David keeps saying..It's the least we can do(fixing all the shit that's wrong with this house), seeing as they're letting us stay here so cheap. And that was fine, until I found out that the electricity goes out all of the time and the way it's wired is dangerous, The gas heater doesn't work anymore, the windows in the back room were not installed properly, the attic is unusable and there is no other storage room ANYWHERE, the plumbing in the bathroom is all fucked up, the water pressure in the whole house is shitty, there are literally 4 cabinets in the kitchen, none of which have cabinet doors, ETC. ETC. I could really go on all day. And David wonders why I have no incentive to keep it clean. THIS HOUSE IS FALLING APART.

AND, on top of everything, I'm not feeling too great, think I'm coming down with something. Which, of course, waited to manifest itself right before I start school. FANTASTIC DAY TODAY.

[Jone]

I don't want to live my life like a normal person. So quit treating me like a 5 year old. What damn good will that do?

[MagnoliaTree]

IT WASN'T MY IDEA FOR YOU TO MOVE TO SEATTLE WITH ME, STOP ACTING LIKE I ASKED YOU TO SELL THE FUCKING HOUSE.

My dad is taking forever with what HE is doing, then makes me feel like shit for taking a while on what I'm doing. WE'RE NOT SELLING THE HOUSE THIS VERY MOMENT, IT DOESN'T MATTER IF MY FUCKING DRESSER DRAWERS ARE OUT

[Reticentt]

i want to cry.

[David]

i don't even know why i keep going.

this life is a waste of time.

[Reticentt]

i don't even know why i keep going.

this life is a waste of time.

sweetheart, your life is precious!

[David]

i think i'm really emotionally inept.

and this isn't self loathing, this is just me thinking.

as everyone knows, i really can not stand the general population and have trust issues and all of that. but even when i do manage to care about someone, i fuck it up. it never fails. i end up hurting them and don't even realize it until it's too late. i think i get it from my father. he was the same way with my mom and the only thing he loved in this world was his family, yet that's who he seemed to hurt the most. i never understood it until now, and i still don't really get it because i don't even realize im doing it.

i suppose i could do everyone i care about a favor by staying away.

[Kinkeh_x]

I feel so crap. Utterly crappy. Emotionally, because you're so good to me and sometimes I feel like I don't show you that enough.


You stuck by me this last year and it was the hardest year of my life, but I made it and this weekend we celebrated in style. I still feel bad though, anyone else would have run but you stayed. and literally wiped away all my tears. I'l never be good enough for you but I will always do my best to make you happy and proud. Even if I do have a tendency to close up.
10.11.09.

[Kinkeh_x]

I feel so crap. Utterly crappy. Emotionally, because you're so good to me and sometimes I feel like I don't show you that enough.


You stuck by me this last year and it was the hardest year of my life, but I made it and this weekend we celebrated in style. I still feel bad though, anyone else would have run but you stayed. and literally wiped away all my tears. I'l never be good enough for you but I will always do my best to make you happy and proud. Even if I do have a tendency to close up.
I'm also feeling like a complete and utter super bitch. My sister overheard my dad and I talking about her and her lazy assed over grown child bf. && I guess I should have told her in person but she would have just gone on the defensive. She never listens. Ever. And I just had to vent. Now we're not really talking and she didn't come to my birthday dinner, which is understandable but meh. I feel like he fucks up everything. She can't see how useless he is. Love really is blind.
10.11.09.

[CheesyFries_]

I say I love my bf, but in reality I just don't feel the spark. Only when I want sex from him. And I also like 2 different guys other than my bf.

[MischiefManagedx]

It's literally hours before I go on vacation. My best friend's watching my dog for the few days I'm gone, so she's coming over to meet my dog and such. I haven't hung out with her in weeks, and when she does come over, she brings her boyfriend. I like her boyfriend as a person, but I haven't hung out with her by herself in over two months. I'm just getting sick of always seeing THEM. I miss my best friend.

[Schadenfreude-]

I'm dying a little on the inside.

[snickerdoodled]

Ok you need to stop posting those Bible verses 24/7 on your Facebook status. One, because you're about as fake as it can get. You keep telling people to "be true to thy brothers and sisters"; can you fix yourself up first? Thanks. (And you know exactly what I'm talking about.)

Also it's pretty ironic how the people I dislike always end up friends with the people I do like. Fate is a bitch

[Reticentt]

is this real?

no no..is this real? this is too good to be true. i have horrible luck with men and this guy is head over heels over me, and i have a massive crush on him. he didnt sleep the past two days because he doesnt want to stop talking to me despite me telling him not to. the past...10ish days ive been insanely happy because of him and him alone. i love the feeling of someone liking me, i forgot how that feels. this feels surreal!!

but then again i dont want to question his interest in me..i always get paranoid that guys dont like me for just being me..since im not really interesting

[Chris_is_AWESOME]

I can sleep right now and I really need 2 sleep dis shit gets on my nerves