went to get frozen yogurt with him and we sat and talked and stuff and he dropped me off and we kissed. and it wasnt bad. it was fine.
but i want to cry. how pathetic is that? seriously. i hate myself for still wanting it to be you. you dont deserve to have me feeling like this. you dont deserve having someone still so fucked up over you. what the fuck is wrong with me? this is so pathetic.
i just want feelings as intense as i had with you with someone else so i can say im over you and better off.
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06-16-2012 11:33 PM #4661perfection is too far, lets just fall a p a r t together. ♥
06-17-2012 07:40 AM #4662
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i wish i was sad so i could have something to say, im too happy.
IM TOO BLOODY HAPPY ):
06-17-2012 11:27 PM #4663
ex boyfriend who moved away a year ago has been visiting me for a night every two weeks.
we act like a couple everytime we see eachother and we are sleeping together and yadda yadda. and we haven't had an actual talk about it. i think he assumes that if he moves here in sept we'll immediately just start dating and we'll do this until then. but 1) i kinda want to just be a slut this summer. and by slut i mean having protected sex with 2 boys who i adore and trust and give a shit about and are both people i've dated 2) i can't count on him actually SAVING his money to move back
until tonight i was cool with just having a boyfriend for a weekend for the summer while having awesome kinky sex with joey but now that me, luke and jesse are pretty much best friends i can't fuck this up. i fucking love them all so much and it will always be impossible for me and jesse to hangout as just friends. so i dont know how its going to be possible for me to not date jesse and luke when he moves here and still be able to hangout with my 3 favourite people. and i definitely wont be able to hangout with joey if jesse moves here because i cant be around him and not want to jump his bones and have lotsof amazing sex.
i sound so fucking retarded like OH POOR ME IM SLEEPING WITH 2 GREAT BOYS. i dont want to be anyones girlfriend right now but acting coupley with jesse is so fun and having fucked up sex with joey is also so fun. if only jesse was down with being in an open relationship...would be heavenly. although obviously he's no allowed sleeping with other girls. duh. and i sounds like an awful fucking bitch but i get a weird satisfaction about the fact that jesse likes me enough that he wont even think about dating another girl fro a LONG time...even though i dont have plans to date him. i'm the worst. i feel like the girl that every guy bitches about.
also my life is fucking boring now that school is done so these are the only things that dwell in my mind. not really that big of a deal except that 4 friendships are really hanging on a thread here and there's no way i can maintain them all if jesse and luke move here. but literally nothing sounds better than bieng able to spend everyday with luke and jesse and jessica....and then going to have a rough quicky with joey
06-18-2012 12:28 AM #4664
First you make it known to everyone that you blocked me off your feed on fb now you're posting on my posts trying to be all nice guy. Don't have the time for that.
06-18-2012 12:34 PM #4665
I know you care, but you have an irritating way of showing it.
Your constant criticisms and the fact that you bring up the same things over, and over again are really getting old.
Also, the fact that you seem to think you're better than everyone else drives people away too.
I'm not saying that you do believe that(you said you don't and I do believe you), but your comments make it appear
that way. I don't know if that makes any sense, but there is a difference.
Anyway, you complain about a lot of people.
You complain that I'm not as social as you.
You try and make me feel bad when I don't want the same thing you want for me.
You complain when I'm feeling down, but yet it's perfectly acceptable for you to rant and rave.
No one is allowed to interrupt your rant. Everyone fears telling you that you're overreacting, because you'll just make some excuse as to why your reaction is acceptable. But, if someone else was reacting the same way...you would probably get very upset.
You complain when Dad and Grandma don't act the way you think they should, either. ]
If Dad wants to spend his time on the computer, and if Grandma only wants to talk to certain people, just let them.
Leave them be. Not everyone wants to be around a lot of people all the time like you seem to.
Not trying to be mean, because it's good to be a people-person. I just wish you could accept that not everyone feels the same way. Whenever you complain about how Dad "just wanders around without talking to anybody" or about how Grandma "will only talk to Aunt So-and-So" or about how I "only speak when you prompt me to" it makes it sound like we're inferior, or something, just because we don't blab away to anyone and everyone.
And it's not just with family. It's anyone and everyone that doesn't act up to your standards."Even though you may want to move foward in life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?"
06-20-2012 09:49 AM #4666
We're being graded on effort and completeness, right? well I turned in every assignment on time, I tried my god-damned hardest. So why am I getting D's and F's on homework assignments based solely on effort? I left a few blank here and there, but so did other people and they got 8/10's and up. Seriously, just because you're having a shitty summer, or being very butthurt this summer, doesn't mean you need to take it out on the class. Because of your shitty grading, there's no way in hell I can make a good mark in this class. And this is my major! There's no chance of talking to the professor about your shit attitude towards the class, because she'll take your side and defend you, because she chose you and doesn't want to question herself. It should be that since I'm working hard, I get the credit for it. But no, you emailed some students back with THE BITCHIEST replies, and coming from a TA, that's fucking disgraceful. Telling a student that you refuse to help them understand the topic; or telling another student asking for help, "I don't do that". What fucking good are you, if you can't help us understand the material? If you know it as well as the professor says you do, you should be willing to help with open arms! I didn't want to say anything in class, because I personally have not tried to contact you, but you're the worst fucking TA I've ever had the displeasure of working with. You're vile, unfair and don't deserve the position you were given. Fucking asshat.We stopped checking for monsters under our beds when we realized they were inside ourselves
06-20-2012 10:38 AM #4667Your heart is a muscle the size of your fist.
Keep on loving, keep on fighting, and hold on for your life.
06-20-2012 01:49 PM #4668
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That moment when you drop a microSD card and you cant find it.
Fuck it, I'm ordering a new one online, cbf looking for it.
06-20-2012 02:26 PM #4669
I'm so down, I can't cope. And I'm dreading this course. They won't change me or how I think though.L E K 2 1 2 9
06-20-2012 04:21 PM #4670
I might have to do some driving tonight...I'd rather just spend time on the couch, watching TV...but these days, I don't think it matters much what I want. I think my parents are eventually going to force me to take the road test...I was hoping the day would never come, but each day that comes is one day closer to it..."Even though you may want to move foward in life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?"
06-21-2012 02:04 AM #4671
OMGGGG NOW THAT YOU ACT LIKE YOU DONT WANT ME I WANT YOU SO FUCKING BAD.
what in the fuck lol
but i dont get hwy all the sudden you stop texting me
idk if i should wait it out another day or text you tomorrow wahperfection is too far, lets just fall a p a r t together. ♥
06-21-2012 02:48 AM #4672
This is fucking ridiculous. You're a 38 yr old woman there's no reason I should have to tell you to clean up after yourself or tell you to shower. I ask you if you've showered recently and you get an attitude with me? I've been here a week and a half and I haven't seen you shower at all. You smell like sweat and period and it's disgusting. How are you a nurse and you're not clean? You could give someone a fucking infection or something. Not to mention when you're around people you've got to get into their personal space and you fucking smell. When you pass by me I hold my breath because you smell so fucking awful I feel sorry for your patients, I really do.
I was talking to my grandma about it and she said when she first met you she would tell you to shower too because you would smell and you would get pissed with her. How can you have no consideration for other people? No one wants to smell your funky ass. You've been sitting in your spot on the couch for hours without pants on and now that you've finally gotten up it smells awful. It's been an hour, it still smells awful. I've been spraying febreeze but nothing can get rid of the smell I guess I'm sleeping in my brothers room tonight.
And all you've been doing today is eating eating eating and I've said nothing but as soon as I pick up one thing you're always talking about what I eat. Critiquing what I eat "you put pepper on your salad that's so nasty." "You put sour cream on your taco? That's nasty" "You're eating beans? That's so nasty" WELL GOOD THING YOU DON'T HAVE TO EAT IT THEN. I DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOUR OPINION ON WHAT I'M EATING YOU ANNOYING FUCKING SMELLY ****.
My mom is upset that I want to go home this weekend. Honestly I would love to stay here but it's you. I need a fucking break from you before you come to my house and annoy me some more. I spend more time with you than I get to spend time with my mom because she's working her ass off trying to support her family and your fat lazy ass. I seriously cannot stand you. You're the most irritating person on the fucking planet. Clean up after your fucking self, if I have to clean up your leftover period blood off the toilet one more time I'm going to fucking lose it. Stop smoking cigarettes with the glass window open, you blow smoke inside the fucking living room. Stop walking around with no pants on and sitting on the couch with your legs spread so your gut hangs between your legs, you're like 100 pounds overweight and your pussy smells. Stop yelling and screaming all the fucking time. You don't need to scream at the tv, they can't hear you. You don't have to scream at the top of your lungs when you laugh WE CAN HEAR YOU. You don't have to slurp, smack and crunch loudly on your food, you're a human being not a fucking ox you disgusting slattern.
Stop asking me questions about shit I don't give a fuck about. No I don't know the name of any football players I don't watch football. Stop asking me the names of rappers and old rap songs from the 80s, no one gives a fuck about the 80s. And the most annoying thing is you're not even asking because you're curious, you're just asking because you want to tell me the answer even though I constantly make it very clear that I DONT GIVE A SHIT. I don't give a shit about when you were a cheerleader. I don't give a shit about when you were skinny. I don't give a shit about where you used to leave my grandpa's coffee in the morning when you were little. NO1CURRS, BITCH, GET A BLOG.
And it's so annoying when I try to get a word in edgewise (which is basically pulling teeth when it comes to you) and you immediately jump in with "If I were you I would've done (insert stupid shit here)" or "I would've said (more stupid shit)". Dude fuck you. I'm constantly subjected to your nonstop chattering and you constantly talk over me and you don't stop. If O try to ignore your rude ass and finish what I'm saying you just keep repeating yourself getting louder and louder.
You are the grossest, rudest, most annoying person I've ever come across in my life and you really think this dude is gonna marry you? The girl he can just call and say "cook me chicken and fuck me" and your ass goes running, without even showering first mind you. Ughhhh you are so fucking delusional and slovenly...I can't. Why can't you move in with him? Why do you want to move in with us? You're crazy as hell if you think you're gonna be sharing a room with me. I'm not fucking having it. You are not gonna smell up my bed with your fucking ass and if you get anything on my white sheets I'm just gonna shove a fork in your throat. I'm getting a new doorknob with a lock and key to keep your ass out of my room when I'm gone. Ughhh i fucking hate you. UGHH.
06-21-2012 05:14 PM #4673
I just missed my train to montreal.
I also just realized that it's my graduation tonight.
I don't have any friends.
06-22-2012 01:39 AM #4674
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I dont like my life.
I end up liking people far too soon and I cant help it, sometimes I wish I never had the ability to do this.
Try liking a girl online. Easy. Happened 4 times before. All disasters. I dont want that to happen again, because if I end up letting it happen then it will be a disaster.
Sometimes, I wish I didn't have the personality I have now, or I would have offed myself years ago.
Nothing ever works for me.
Fuck my life.
Just keep living.
I hate it all so much.
Just because I cant find someone to spend it with who wont fuck me over and leave me.
I'm not even a loser enough to think about suicidal bullshit.
Fucking hell I hate my life so much.
Yes, it's as bad as it sounds.
LETS FUCKING PRETEND.
06-22-2012 01:56 AM #4675
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Fucking hell depression just hit me like a brick wall.
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06-22-2012 03:26 AM #4676
i hate guys lolperfection is too far, lets just fall a p a r t together. ♥
06-22-2012 12:20 PM #4677
06-22-2012 01:29 PM #4678
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FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU UUUUUUUUUUUCK
i threw my breakfast out the window cause it was making me feel sick.
im hungry now.
TIME TO DRINK.
06-22-2012 01:45 PM #4679
I know I'm PMSing, but I just feel so extremely angry and upset right now. Just every little thing setting me off. I want to scream at everyone.
06-22-2012 04:21 PM #4680
You talk about how you haven't seen me in forever. Its only been a month, and that was your fault anyway.