I don't know anymore, my life has always seemed to be rather crappy I suppose, and as of this year it's really been hitting me as to why I just don't give up.

I started getting even more depressed and suicidal feeling in June when one of my good friends ended up committing suicide out of no where. So my whole summer I was pretty much in depression over that, sleeping all the time, not getting out, little drive to do anything, and just thought of how much easier it seemed to be to do something like that.

And now I'm sitting here, just thinking of how all I try to do is be nice, friendly, respectful, honest, to people, and I always am just getting nothing, or shit in return. It seems like nobody really cares or wants anything to do with me. All the people who claim they are my friends, just seem to like to do stupid annoying crap to piss me off and make me look bad; and to be quite frank I'm about done with it. There's absolutely nobody really trust worthy anymore or I can actually call a good friend it seems like.

Then on top of that, I haven't had a girlfriend since middle school, just because I have been patiently waiting for that right one to walk in my life. Well, she did at the end of summer, couldn't have asked this girl to change at all, and she decided to end our relationship after all I did was loved her and respected her. She just ignores me now and completely shut me out of her life....

All of this just adds up and I just feel like I'm here all by myself and nobody really gives a fuck about me, even my parents are hardly ever around anymore.

I just don't know what to do, I want to keep on fighting to hopefully wait until college so I can get out of here and maybe things will turn around, but as of now my future is looking kind of shitty :\

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Life is so hard....just wait a couple more years. It will get better-I promise.

Don't commit suicide!!!
A boy in my school just did and it broke everyones heart. The whole school was so terribly saddened by the whole ordeal and everyone saw it as a complete tradegy. You may feel as though no-body care for you but a lot of people do you just don't know it and if you did something as stupid as taking your own life it will ruin there entire life and you should know this since you had a friend who commited suicide!!
Its not just going to affect you. It's going to affect many many people and think of how you may ruin there life... Its so selfish!

Life always gets better. Always. Nothing can ever be so bad that you gotta take the easy way out and burn in hell for it (probs much worse then just bitting the bullet while your still on earth)

Dont be a bloody idiot.

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You have to learn to embrace depression and gain from it. We have emotions for a reason, and although it may not seem "right" to feel sad or depressed now days with all this zoloft make me feel better shit, what would happiness be without sadness? Ending your life is up to you, it is your life but I'd say its a pretty stupid decision to go through with.
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Hey there,

I'm sorry that you've went through that.

It's hard to get motivated, but you do have to find the strength in yourself to fight being depressed. Plan some goals for yourself so you have something to do to take your mind off of the sad feelings. Do things like exercise so that you feel physically better, and in turn you'll feel better mentally.

The right people for you will come along. There has been great people that have been in your life - you're bound to meet and find more good people if they aren't in your life already.

Keep your head up.

It's like what i said to another kid here before just yesterday...and these are the exact words. They may be a little harsh but it's true.

"Suicide is for the weak and melodramatic. Most people who threaten to do suicide do it for the attention. If you really hate your life, do what you can to change it...instead of bitching about it. What doesn't kill you makes your stronger.

Threatening to commit suicide will make people look at you differently and treat you differently. Just get through with what is going on, it's not the end of the world. Learn to humble yourself with what you have, and be even more humbler(if thats a word), if you lose everything you have. Atleast you are still living. Life itself is the greatest thing we have in this world, and to fret over material possesions or petty matters in life is ridiculous."

I think what you have to realize is that life is full of dissapointment. If you set your standards high for everything and not expect a little dissapointment in your life every once in a while...you will be let down horribly.

Trust me man, I know how it feels to not feel loved, cared for and all that. One of my best friends commited suicide, My stepfather was and always will be a piece of shit that cares nothing about me and his family, and I lost the one girl that really mattered to me. I ask myself what keeps me going?

It's because I'm still alive. It's because I realized I still had people that care about me. I realize that life is more about enjoying the simplicities of being alive and realizing that ya know...life isn't as bad as I think/thought it was.

You always have to remember that someone out there has a worse life than you do.

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That's not even that bad. Tons of teenagers go through shit just like you are and don't kill themselves.

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Teenage life is hard, I do question myself that way a lot too. Although I'd never resort to suicide. You come to a point in your life when you just think 'this is shit' and like you can't be bothered and feel why should you do things when there doesn't seem to be a point to them. Sometimes you can just feel left out of everything, like everyones turning on you and your parents are being shitty, even though it's all in your head, just hormonal. I'm sorry to hear about your friend, a guy at my school died, not suicide but it was accidental which was the horrible thing about it, and I saw the way it affected the people around me and those who were close to him.

My point is, things may feel this was now, but they WILL get better, you'll always miss your friend but over time you'll feel less upset, time is the best healer. If all you get, and I mean realistically, all you get is shit off people why bother with them? Find a better set of friends, people you enjoy being around. Just think in a couple more years you won't have to put up with any of it anymore, you'll be able to do what you want and live the life you want to.

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Also, don't let a girl get you down. She didn't care enough to stand by you, so why should you care that she left? I know it's not easy, being dumped. But girls aren't everything.

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Your life isn't that bad...you're over exaggerating. Either gtfo it, or go ahead and commit suicide. Stop wining...it causes more problems to everyone, including yourself.

Life is unfair, it always has been, and always will be. Toughen up and deal with it. You're the most important person in your life, and it should never be any other way.

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I agree with everything you said. Everybody will be let down sometimes. Don't expect for everything to go great all the time. We all have had our problems in the past. I've attempted suicide in the past and survived it. It's not the easiest thing to be locked up, then put on meds for the rest of your life. Just remember, shit that happens to you may not be your fault.

I've felt like no one gave a shit about me. There are a few select people who care about me, but I realized that's all I need.

Just realize it'll get better later in life.