which poem should i do onstage for my spoken word class?
1.)untitled
No one understands the things I wonder.
Thinking thoughts I should not ponder.
Vulnerable to the waves of my emotions,
friends are my shelter.
th Voice in my head say, "I can't do it,"
Deeper down inside me still,
I keep pushing harder, harder,
To reach the goal I keep on going for,
I get closer every day,
but I still have doubts along the way,
I have learned who are my true companions,
The ones who appreciate me and care,
I hope to keep those ones forever
and expose the ones that pretend to care i close my eyes sometime during fall,when i open them its already winter
ive lost so much time in a blink of an eye
whats happened since ive been gone
have i been gone at all?
walk down a hallway that never seems to end
the memories hanging on the walls like pictures
shadows that darken my brightest dreams
those memories i kept forgeting to remember are here
is there a reason?
now the door of hopes i enter
the room is cold
in the corner there it is i found it
that glimpse of hope that was crushed by fate
it lies there i can still feel it
is it alive?
it sounds like a heart but its thump slowly pounding
fightnig to stay alive but giving up at the same time
i feel helpless,slowly i start to aproach the door
dont have the courage to look back so i leave
i close the door
my heart beating so quickly i almost didnt hear it
the thumping is gone im alone again......
my knees feel weak i cant stand the pain
i lay on the floor
my yelids dont obey me and slowly start to close
me cheecks feel wet
i realize im crying
i eventually give up and decide to close my eyes
i wake up to an unusual atmosphere
is this heaven?
the laughter draws my attention to my window
i look outside and notice the orange leafs falling from the trees
i realize hope didnt die i was the one who finally understood
the problem wasnt life the problem was just me....



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2.)Floods of tears, Droughts of joy.
Restraint, such beautiful restraint,
Flashes of my broken self,
Tears, a loss, a gain.
Again tears, a loss, a gain,
And now decisions,
An obligatory pain,
I am only human,
I am so much more,
Emotion.
I can’t control,
“I would stop it if I could,
I don’t want to hurt you,
But I must.”
Restraint, such beautiful restraint,
It threads its fingers though my hair,
Its other hand splayed across my back,
Teasing me,
Pulling me deep,
The hand pulls tight,
I am tugged closer,
My hair rips,
The separation,
The closeness
The restrain.
Restraint, such empty, powerless restraint,
That keeps me still,
Between each two,
Between my choices,
One I cannot touch again,
The other I should not,
So I am untouchable,
Yet touched.
The control,
The chaos of control,
I am chaos,
If only for a time.
Restraint breaks,
Mistakes are made,
Love broken,
Kisses stolen,
Glances fearful,
The intensity,
Of being alone,
With you,
The fear,
Of being alone,
Without you.


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3.)Misunderstood
What is wrong with her?
The problems have gone away,
I thought we fixed everything,
That’s what they all say,

They let her go home,
For just one day,
Check on her in the morning,
See if she’s okay?

The blade gets blunt,
As her cuts get deeper,
She hopes to hide it,
But gets weaker and weaker,

So she walks into the rusty gates,
Hiding blood stained clothes and tear stained cheeks,
People look concerned,
But its not help she seeks,

She says she’s fine,
Just feels a bit ill,
Another day later,
She’s unhappy still.

They investigate more,
Everyone keeping an eye out,
Why when the day ends,
She tends to hang about?

This is her comfort zone,
She’s protected from herself here,
She’s not alone,
Therefore not in fear.