Chemically inducing sleep..
Mentally taking strain..
I need to get my head straight..
But my mind is acting lame..

Pretending not to be there..
Pretending not to work..
This doesnt exactly help me..
To get rid of all this hurt..

I think it blanks out all t thoughts of you..
to save me from myself..
I never seem to stop missing you..
& it starting to affect my health..

I need to get my head straight...
I need to show im sane..
This is pushing up my heart rate..
Still trying to place the blame..

Maybe im making too much of this..
Maybe im wasting all my time..
Ám i making too much of this?
This is messing up my mind..

I seem to be at a loss again..
I need a place to go..
I want to be free of this pain again
i wánt to feel im whole..

Still seem to feel irratic these days..
Like my insides are freezing over
im constantly mentally gone these days..
Like im not completely sober..

Fighting demons on the inside..
But on the outside im sitting still..
Mentally seeking place2hide..
Seeking refuge in a pill..

Anything to dull the pain these days..
To help a quick escape
Sometimes feeling trapped and dazed
Hoping its not to late..

Having quiet fits of rage..
(incomplete)

Im mentally messed up i know..

you aren't mentally messed up, you're a teenager.

if it's a poem about a broken, erratic mind, why are you using an organized, rhyming structure?

i thought it was good.
I think you kinda tell the reader your pain
rather then showing them and letting them feel it with you

That was truly








lame.