Dude.
It's LONG.



The words race from my lips

So fast I can't catch them

Pull them back inside

Where it's safe for this secret

The unimaginable has happened

I can't believe I've just said this

Those words...

The three simple words I can't help but love

Hate

Fear

Everything

My life is in these three words

I love you.

You brush them away

As if you couldn't care less

But you do

You hold me close

Whisper the words back into my ear

"It's alright, I love you too"

You hold me

I hold you

Our lips meet for the first time

And the unimaginable has happened again

I'm happy.



Our lips tear apart

The feeling gone

To never return

It does

You pull me back closer

Just to show me I am loved

And then just when I've realized that this is real-

You're gone

You were never there to hold me

You were never there to care

And you're not going to be there

Because you're not here now

Watching the tears fall silently



I wake up from the dream

Panic stricken forever

Will you ever be there?

Someday,

Will my dreams come true?

It's all I've been wishing

For you to free me from these chains

I whisper the words to myself

I love you

I love you

And no one responds



I close my eyes

Wishing you won't be there

The memories of you

Wiping my mind clear of people who do care

I wish I could overcome you so badly

You're so controlling and you don't know it

You don't care

I'm some stupid girl

In a stupid house

Stupidly thinking of you



I run the eyeliner pen under my eye

Hoping today it won't fall down

With the liquid that pours

With these eyes I saw you

In a light no one else had before

With these eyes I witnessed heartbreak

Pain

Sorrow

It's all over now

With the makeup slowly running down my cheeks

I find an old tattered notebook

I solemnly write these words



I thought I was in love

But love

Is just the slowest form of suicide



I leave it on your doorstep and walk away

For a new life

Without you



5 years later I know I'll regret this

But now I don't care and I know you can't care less

Everything is different but it's

So the same

I've left you standing on your porch

The note in hand I know you'll torch

This life was probably carved out for me

Every moment

Every decision

Planned out, I had no choice

I have a choice now

My life was meant for my heart to be broken

And it is

Heartbreak is forever

But for now

I'm happier without you

Than I could ever be

With you



I slowly watch you fade from all my memories

Life is but a dream for me

I know I shouldn't miss you

You did nothing for me

I did nothing for you

You were just a person

I was just a person

And maybe life is good that way

I shouldn't be thinking of you

Night and day

In and out

But what happens is-

I do

I dream about your lips meeting mine

A friendship we never had

And then I snap back to reality and realize-

It never will happen



I walk alone on the road

Slowly and softly

I hear you behind me

Wait

No

It's not you

It can't be you at all

You would never follow me

I'm just the stupid person

Who's always cared about you

You hold my shoulder

Turn me around

It is you

"I love you"

You say

And this time

Our lips meet

For real



"I've always loved you.

You left me alone the entire time.

Now, you come and tell me what I've been waiting for.

Couldn't you see it?

If you loved me you'd know."

"I couldn't tell you because I loved you.

I wish I had the guts.

You did what I never could.

And I love you.

It's the truth.

Believe me."

And this time

I do

Our lips collide again

The tattered note falls to the ground

And it's true

We're in love



You hold me closer

Just like in the dreams

The sun sets over us

Life is perfect now

I don't care that I'm freezing

Your warmth floods into my body

How long have I waited for this to happen

I wait to wake up from the dream...

The wake up never comes



I wrap my arms around you tighter

Realize this is real

This is my life

And I'm with you now

Forever I hope

Nothing could compare to this

Wherever I go in life

I want you with me

By my side

Holding my hand

Supporting everything I do

I'll do the same for you

Life is but a dream

This is my dream

This is my life