xSpencerxxx
02-15-2006, 06:54 PM
Okay, this is not a poem but, well a life lesson. Perhaps a story. It's anything you want to make it.
So... here it goes. Constructive critisism welcome. Seince my heart has turned black it won't hurt because I can't feel.
It's a tough world out there. Weather you like it or not, you have to deal. With everything. The good, the bad, and of course, the uindeniably ugly. All of you have to deal with work. You all
have to deal with family. And unfortanetly, you have to deal with high school.
It's a pain in the ass, really. It hurts. And you get hurt. By people, and by you'rself. You work and get little in return. You screw and get screwed. Others and by others. You vow that one day, those kids who bullied you will " Get theirs" and sometimes, you just want to call it quits. But you can't. And you know it. That's where life comes in. It sucks... majorly. And it's hard. It takes alot of time, and no matter what you have to go through it day by day. If everyone were to kill themselves what would happen? There would be no one left.
But anyway, back on topic,
Occasionally, someone changes you. They change you for the better because they know you can be. Sometimes, they've lived in a different country. Some have even live around the world.
But sometimes, they've been standing in front of you all along, waiting for you to notice them. They think that if they say the wrong thing, it will blow up in their face.. but it won't. Take my friend for instance, they ( not saying if it is a girl or boy) told me today, they loved me. And I was taken back. But, in a good way. Because weather they meant it or not, I know that to them it means they will always be around. They'll be there when I need them. Help me when I'm upset. Cheer me up when I'm down. And it's a good feeling.. it makes me feel... safe. For once,
I feel safe. And I'm not afraid to say; " I love them back." And I don't mean the type where like on Valentine's day; today for instance, where they give you chocolate, flowers, make you breakfest in bed, make out with you type love. I mean, safe feeling, know you'll be there for them love. And, that's pretty much what everyone says. Some, like my friend, say it their own way, and some, don't say it at all. But you know that a true friend is always there for you.
They are there through everything. For you'rself, For themselve's, and when they are upset. Or when you talk on the phone, and try to calm them down because they are bawling their eyes out weather it is family problems, boy problems, or friend problems. Or, you're reputation.
Love can suck. And it can hurt and break you.
I've seen it happen first time, because I went through it.
I have had my up's and down's but no matter what I learn to bounce back. It's not the end of the world, so don't make it seem that way.
You will move on in time, have many other's, and get hurt.
You will break hearts, and get you're heart broken.
But, love is still going to be the same.
Confusing, painful, feeling as if everything was dropped on top of you and left for you to handel. Like you have the weight of the world on you're shoulder's and the only one person who can take it off, is the person who hurt you most.
So yeah, I am not going to lie and say that Love doesn't hurt. Because, it does. It hurts alot.
And no matter what way you turn in, up, down, side ways, it's still going to hurt.
It also takes you're breath away. Not by the events, but by the actual meaning of what it is when you are told the words; " I love you."
So, my point I'm trying to get to here is,
no matter what you do, say, or think,
love will always be... love. It will always hurt, and will always be amazing, crazy, scary, confusing, and yet, so much more.
You can never know when love will come to find you, or when you will find it. It just... happens.
Well, that's all I have to say.
Thank you,
<3Spencer<3
So... here it goes. Constructive critisism welcome. Seince my heart has turned black it won't hurt because I can't feel.
It's a tough world out there. Weather you like it or not, you have to deal. With everything. The good, the bad, and of course, the uindeniably ugly. All of you have to deal with work. You all
have to deal with family. And unfortanetly, you have to deal with high school.
It's a pain in the ass, really. It hurts. And you get hurt. By people, and by you'rself. You work and get little in return. You screw and get screwed. Others and by others. You vow that one day, those kids who bullied you will " Get theirs" and sometimes, you just want to call it quits. But you can't. And you know it. That's where life comes in. It sucks... majorly. And it's hard. It takes alot of time, and no matter what you have to go through it day by day. If everyone were to kill themselves what would happen? There would be no one left.
But anyway, back on topic,
Occasionally, someone changes you. They change you for the better because they know you can be. Sometimes, they've lived in a different country. Some have even live around the world.
But sometimes, they've been standing in front of you all along, waiting for you to notice them. They think that if they say the wrong thing, it will blow up in their face.. but it won't. Take my friend for instance, they ( not saying if it is a girl or boy) told me today, they loved me. And I was taken back. But, in a good way. Because weather they meant it or not, I know that to them it means they will always be around. They'll be there when I need them. Help me when I'm upset. Cheer me up when I'm down. And it's a good feeling.. it makes me feel... safe. For once,
I feel safe. And I'm not afraid to say; " I love them back." And I don't mean the type where like on Valentine's day; today for instance, where they give you chocolate, flowers, make you breakfest in bed, make out with you type love. I mean, safe feeling, know you'll be there for them love. And, that's pretty much what everyone says. Some, like my friend, say it their own way, and some, don't say it at all. But you know that a true friend is always there for you.
They are there through everything. For you'rself, For themselve's, and when they are upset. Or when you talk on the phone, and try to calm them down because they are bawling their eyes out weather it is family problems, boy problems, or friend problems. Or, you're reputation.
Love can suck. And it can hurt and break you.
I've seen it happen first time, because I went through it.
I have had my up's and down's but no matter what I learn to bounce back. It's not the end of the world, so don't make it seem that way.
You will move on in time, have many other's, and get hurt.
You will break hearts, and get you're heart broken.
But, love is still going to be the same.
Confusing, painful, feeling as if everything was dropped on top of you and left for you to handel. Like you have the weight of the world on you're shoulder's and the only one person who can take it off, is the person who hurt you most.
So yeah, I am not going to lie and say that Love doesn't hurt. Because, it does. It hurts alot.
And no matter what way you turn in, up, down, side ways, it's still going to hurt.
It also takes you're breath away. Not by the events, but by the actual meaning of what it is when you are told the words; " I love you."
So, my point I'm trying to get to here is,
no matter what you do, say, or think,
love will always be... love. It will always hurt, and will always be amazing, crazy, scary, confusing, and yet, so much more.
You can never know when love will come to find you, or when you will find it. It just... happens.
Well, that's all I have to say.
Thank you,
<3Spencer<3